My dear Past,


I am writing you this letter so you can keep it close to you to understand why I am leaving you, you have given me second guesses, you have made life with others tolerable, and you have always given me the perfect reason to hide myself from others who didn’t deserve it!

I wanted to also inform you that because I will not be with you any longer I am going to accept the present moment more fully as my committed partner for existence here.  You always didn’t like the present moment and I get it, the present moment is a very sexy thing to try and compete with.  I know this will be hard for you and I hope that some day you will understand that it wasn’t you! IT WAS ME!

I just couldn’t be the man you wanted me to be repeatedly. It made me hard to understand, it gave me excuses to have pain that I would inflict on others. I just didn’t feel that was right of you to do that!  I had many affairs on you, I would sneak and meet someone and not hold their past against them and they wouldn’t hold my past against me (hell there were times you told me it was ok to keep it from others).  Then somehow, someway you would convince me to sleep with you again.  That wasn’t right. I did eventually leave them for you. Cause you were just to intoxicating for me to remove from myself.  I do want you to know I have released you from any alimony or child support. In other words you no longer have to pay for trips back down memory lane that will make me make a decision to endure your kind of pain. Cause my future will remain unknown to me.  Me and the present moment have spoken to this in great lengths. It is again not about you… IT IS ABOUT ME. I just realized it!  The present moment also said that I could not have any affairs with a little part of you or the future. So I know that this was a trying message to read.  But I thought I would leave a few things for you to realize going forward in the terms of the restraining order.

1) You are not allowed to come into my life to try and tell me what is going to happen, you must remain more than a mile away from me at all times.

2) Any lie you hear me tell myself about love, you are not allowed to come in and give it validity.

3) Anger, resentment, punishment, are mine to take in that moment as I take it, it will not build!  You have a restraining order PAY ATTENTION TO NUMBER 1 RULE!

4) You under no condition will try and tell me what love is or what it isn’t!  Your the past you can’t possible know what love is in this moment. Hence why I am leaving you for THE PRESENT MOMENT!

5) Don’t try to surface telling me I will be more protective and guarded of myself and my experiences that are in the present moment with you around. You aren’t psychic so stop claiming to be you have a catalog of history be a history teacher not a present moment connoisseur. I am not going to believe it to repeat it!


7) I believe I can fly without you, in other words you clipped my wings for long enough with your ability to tell me who I was with repeated memories of pain and more pain. My wings got weighted down with tar thanks to you.  NO MORE!

8) You are not allowed to use my mind against me. You can not find a way in manipulating things that i currently doing trying to show me all the different scenarios of what is to come based on results that were in the past.  Again this isn’t about you! It’s about ME!

9) You are not allowed to find a pathway into dreams, into day or night or other. It isn’t that I don’t love you completely I do in fact hence why I am letting you go completely.

10) Don’t take my love for granted, it will grow now because of your absence. It will realize there never had to be a limit and it will heal in your absorption of love I have inside me to make me the man she needs and wants. The present moment sends love your way, that you will find peace.

These are the guidelines for this divorce and I know you will have no choice to but to abide my wishes as it would show me how much you don’t love me by breaking these rules!

Wishing you luck finding another to pursue this with,

Clark Kent Esq.

Things to know about a woman

In doubt, In pain, embrace all these things about her and never allow them to go unheard, untouched, unresolved in her, She doesn’t need a therapist, she doesn’t need Xanax or any other thing to keep suppressing the very thing that keeps her in pain, that keeps her from you!  There is a love in you that doesn’t have to understand, it doesn’t have to fight her through this, there is as a love in you that can absorb there for her.  To give her the love that stands her up and allows her to move mountains.  A mountain can move if you do so together, not in your absence, not in your silence, but deep in your stillness to absorb the pain she carries.  Impossible this is not!

If you fail, your love will not give up it will make you stronger it will give you the strength to bring her through any fog, bring her home to your heart, bring you home to her mind, body and more than anything her soul.  If you don’t allow her to let go of those things, if you don’t allow those pains in her to absorb into yourself, your soul will never become the soul that is her’s to keep in sync with your own.

When you love deep and and you love her with all that comes from you in words then this action comes first.  It is the love of self, the love in you can heal all things, to include yourself to her.  If you have demons they will unlock and she will absorb them for you,  When you are washed of all the pain in you, all the lies you keep inside you, all the words you can’t place together to give her your soul, you are not seeing the place of love in you that is you without all the mirrors that are placed inside you!  She will show you which one is you.

Allow the stream of things you were taught to be let go of to be the man she needs, the man she wants

Allow the incessant mind noise that she doesn’t know you to be gone cause you don’t know yourself, other wise she will never know you.

Embrace your knowing self as the knowing of the love you have inside you to know it does have a place inside her to allow you both the love you aspire to have.

If you are not deep enough inside yourself you are not deep enough inside her.

She has been through a life stream separate from you this means your ability to communicate needs partnership.

She is not the mother you had, she does possess the ability to love you unconditionally, she does possess the ability to understand when you share what you didn’t communicate with your mother what you learned form how you communicate.

It isn’t about knowing women, it is about knowing the woman that strikes a cord in your soul!

Above anything else, know that she is all things to all the things you think you could know as you don’t know everything, she can open your eyes to the other view of what is something you never could see as you could have four eyes instead of two!

Realize in this moment just as in any other now is the difference you make in embracing all that she is..

Realize your energy to her makes her more beautiful.

Open up to accepting all this post says.  If it has touched you as you read it stop reading and go kiss her and look in her eyes and speak with your eyes only.  Stop taking this moment for granted for she needs you and wants you and to make that more you need to be in this moment with her not her or your own past or future.

Love is the eternal light of being all things god, If you share this with her then you are absorbing her soul into your own to find that very thing.

Love deeply this may be your last moment to do so!!!!

Do you still feel the best kiss you ever had?????

The kiss… the moment the lips impact another is this place… it is deep… it is with a sense of touch.. it is what physical feeling can embrace in a place that can be the love inside you that you wish to share..  Are you one of those beings who doesn’t pay attention to this?  Are you a being that after a month of kisses you no longer are present for what these kisses do to you?  Do you get caught up in life situations and ignore this as though it is something that is just normal… everyday… or you even don’t kiss anymore… well you are missing it.. you are missing this place that should only be a start of a place inside you that welcomes butterflies over and over… What dictates this to you?  how do you let time of thought become the absolute in your life situations..  We live this life for one reason and one reason only.. we live it for this moment.. not the moment coming but this moment right now… There are things you should hold onto.. and there are things you shouldn’t… how do you know that you are trapped in something that isn’t in that moment… or better still.. Can you see a life where the kiss last indefinitely.. that ultimate feeling stays with you all the time!!!  Ever been touched so deeply you could close your eyes and feel that moment again just sitting her reading this right now?

~~~~~~~~~ close your eyes and be there~~~~~~~~~~

Ok if you kept on reading this and didn’t do that… that is how fast you have let that kiss or that touch stay with you!!!!!!

You let it go.. You are trapped in a place you can’t even begin to accept love.. not true love… not the love of a soul connected mate… or what you even called a soul mate. (remember there is a difference in those mates you have felt before!)  But for those of you that did stop and did remember and did capture that feeling you are either on a high right now… or very sad.. or even worse feel as though you have great loss in you… that loss is not real.. it never could be.. but it could also be something else… what else you might ask?? You never took the moment to realize in you how whole you are without that love in your life… in other words you are living from one life situation after another to never live your life NOW….

Yes read that till it makes sense…

It does and if you are with that one that you share this with.. then you are reading this and smiling ear to ear…  Live life.. not your life situations… don’t be trapped in something that your mind will take this away from you… We got this from childhood… we got this from hearing to think before you act… the tree of knowledge of good and evil was not supposed to deliver this message.. we were supposed to hear something else… we were supposed to listen to the core of love that we are born with… This core is a deep core.. you can elect to go deep or be in a surface place with that with whom you are with.. choice is yours?  just remember it is a choice.. You can be conscious and in the conscious of NOW you can feel wonderful in every moment to come!

I am wired differently I tried to live my life before now that way this place of incessant thinking… letting myself be ruled by my thoughts… I no longer hold those thoughts in me… I sit here writing this and feel as though I am talking about someone else.. I recently read a statement that we all carry inside and it spiraled to me that told me to hear something deeper… It was..”when will someone get me, I just want to be with someone who gets me?”

I no longer have that…. how could I? wouldn’t I be placing a limit on what I will accept… or a limit on myself to just be understood??  or even more a acceptance of happiness that is not truly happy at all….

Well if you become a complex being with complex life situations and stay in that… who will get you? isn’t it a life puzzle that is missing pieces… yes it is… it is something no one will get… not right now… not in the future… not in the past… not until you make your life the now..  Now is the only place where life is simple… It has no thoughts about tomorrows issues… yesterdays faults or misfortune.. how did this happen.. how did the world become so lost to the only place that doesn’t matter.. not hate… not pain.. not regret.. not anything of any thing that matters but love… Now is the only place it exist… isn’t it?

The kiss or touch you can feel when you are truly present for it… that is where you will begin to feel a magic I am speaking of.. you will connect so deeply.. you will feel what you have never known possible…  I say this to not make you think… but feel…