The soul of a man….

My son wrote this… and it is powerful beyond measure… so I am sharing here because it is deep and profound….  I love you my son!

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Ladies & Gentlemen,

If you ever fall in love..
Fall in love with someone who wants to know your favorite color & how you like your coffee. Fall in love with someone who loves to hear you laugh & does whatever they can to hear it often. Fall in love with someone who puts their head on your chest to hear your heartbeat. Fall in love with someone who kisses you in public & is proud to show you off to anyone & everyone you meet. Fall in love with someone who makes you question why you were ever afraid to fall in love in the first place. Fall in love with someone who makes you realize you are winning the race. Fall in love with someone that will show you that when you hurt, he or she will hurt with you. Fall in love with someone who will spend years with you & will still always flirt with you. Fall in love with someone who falls in love with your flaws & thinks you are perfect just the way you are. Fall in love with someone that shows you how to stop leading with your brain & start leading with your heart…

 

 

 

My son…

 

You are a brilliant writer.. and your true essence comes through when you let go and just let it flow!  I am proud of you!  You touch me to my core and say words that I always felt within me!

Love,

Dad

 

Do you trust those that love you? Healing series March 2014

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Do you trust those that love you?

 

 

The intent of trust is something that we still make about other people not seeing that we have broken something inside that is broken inside the self.  Trust is a very powerful word that becomes instilled in us at an early age.  We trust we are not abandoned, we trust someone will protect us from pain or suffering, we trust we will be loved unconditionally.  When this doesn’t happen what does it do to our trust?

 

Well let’s list these 5 things to show you trust in action or as an energy these 5 things are random yet will give you an idea you will find that you will find other words that show up in trust that you may or may not be seeing.

 

Abandonment

Abuse

Loyalty

Communication

Addiction

 

 

Abandonment – if you experienced this as a child born into a world with the love you have inside and you become abandoned by those that are supposed to love you without conditions you will then see that everyone will abandon you, you trust it! You trust as you find love finding you getting older you will trust that it will abandon you and you make choices to be with someone who will abandon you, not because of what happened to you as a child but because of what you told yourself inside that gave you the same energy to abandon yourself and make poor choices to make sure you find abandonment as an energy even someone who normally doesn’t abandon you will be infected with this energy in trust you have for yourself and will abandon you without even seeing that they are getting this energy from something you have hidden within you.  Why not embrace this about yourself to not abandon yourself in this? Wouldn’t this be how you remove or heal this very thing?

 

 

 

Abuse – You lost trust because you were abused and you trust that you will be abused again feel the emotional truth of this and it will be a way to keep you protected, isn’t that trust? You even will find abusive relationships because the abuse brings you aliveness and you trust this as a part of your aliveness.  It is not as sick as you might think, for the thinking is saying you will be hurt, you will be emotionally distraught where in truth you are distraught even before this happens.  It is dormant for a period of time but in the back of the mind where the ego is accessing this pain and trauma, it exist within the emotional existence of a past experience you call to.  This story inside as the story teller demands this be something you are still a victim of.  Trusting in victim energy is always painful and always addictive. This story is always there for you to trust in.  It’s purpose in trust is that you are pain and that pain has to be emotionally embraced and you must trust in that pain as a way of being.  Not seeing that the trust is very deceiving and that it will only call to more of the same in energy that infected you in the first place.  There are very disturbing truths about what someone endures that will do this to others. Yet when it happens to you, it infects you and takes you over and you trust that it will and so it does.

 

 

 

Loyalty – If your loyal it is a trust factor because you see that being on someones side is always a way to receive trust in return.  Yet when this is lost with one and then another and then something else. You will hide inside and keep to yourself, you will even say you can’t trust anyone and those who shouldn’t be trusted find you highly attractive whether for a love relationship or other.  They will betray you because you emit the energy of betraying yourself from what has happened to you. We raise ourselves to break cycles… the cycle of what this trust does breaks that breaking of cycles.  In other words when you stop trusting yourself you no longer become loyal to yourself and then others who are not loyal to you or themselves will find you.  So you decide to find someone who won’t hurt you and you find someone safe who won’t do you trust they will find out why you choose them and then the trust of that trust in them will start to be questioned?  Trust you will find loyal and you will but trusting that you are not able to trust yourself will give you this for a little while and the symptoms of this will give you something else in this process.

 

 

 

 

Communication – You trust that someone will communicate with you and when you stop communication you expect them to give you the communication you stopped giving to them.  Do you trust that they will give you something you won’t give them or yourself?  Yes, you in there deep somewhere in you, you do!  It is not on purpose it is by energy in purpose the broken record of communicating the same thing over and over again which is toxic to all communication especially the communication shared on this planet.  We even use communication to attack in ways to communicate broken trust that we will be harmed in the process thus elevating this truth and it is returned. We are hurt because we trust that we will be hurt.  Do you see the energy in motion this causes us is directly embedded in how we communicate without trust.  Recently we had someone come to us about someone they met, they told them they were single because the last relationship they had they were cheated on again… they said they always seem to be cheated on.  Do you know what energy transpired from this? Do you trust that what this communication did was actually seeking this type of energy to begin with?

 

 

 

 

Addiction – When you trust that you have an addiction isn’t that only giving the addiction power. I was a sex addict, I was addicted to sex, and when I told myself that I felt an overwhelming feeling, it made it easy of saying well it is a part of me that I can trust.  And so, it made it so!  Addiction to anything is a trust behavior that allows the symptoms to be dismissed instantly. You will not easily accept what the root of those symptoms are, you trust that you have it to cope with everything. The deep truth is in the dark to you and when you feel dark it only activates the trust you put in your addiction! I know this for it was me in all the addictions I could become addicted to.  The darker you felt in the addiction the more you can trust that very thing will help you continue to feel dark.  Trust is powerful it is a dependable friend that the ego can use to make you pay for being disconnected from yourself thus being disconnected from everyone else. Making sure you can trust any lies and seldom any truth that is not being noticed!

 

 

How is your trust? Can you see it clearly?  Is it dependent upon others who will break this trust in you?  Or is this already there in you because you do trust yourself negatively or don’t trust yourself positively?

 

See how trust is being used in ego to make you completely right in what the trust will give you without seeing that it gives you what is broken within you?

 

Do you feel this in truth to trust it?

 

Who would you be if you saw trust in this way? What would you start trusting and what would you stop trusting?

 

Love deeply,

 

Clark

Our Deep Sincere Thanks!

 

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There comes a time in your life when you take a look at where you are in that particular moment, We have had quite the Journey as most of you have read most of our blogs and know we have a connection so strong, so honest and so True it withstood everything the universe threw at us. We are Now Living a True Twin Flame Union, Inside this Union we have no choice but to teach, learn and guide others going through any type Relationship Issues. We tend to not lean on our College education or even what we absorbed from our Certification courses, we coach and guide from our one soul. We were led to make this our life’s work, and going in without fear proved difficult however we do what we are led to do, we enjoy it, and we appreciate it.

 

Looking at where we are now simply amazes us. We have such an amazing growing client base and when its time for them to fly, they fly and always keep in touch with us and sometimes even find they need a little more guidance and we are always here. Recently we have noticed such a spike in our e mail box and our Facebook group is growing by 50+ daily. No doubt we have our clients do their own work and sometimes its very uncomfortable and even painful but the result is Peace, and Unconditional love.

 

The loving support and Beautiful words sent to us daily from our Clients and friends confirms to us we are doing what we are called to do. Yesterday was an especially amazing day when a Client of ours found out we were getting Legally Married this fall,we have always been married in our souls and feel it is time to take the step here and have a Twin Flame Ceremony 🙂

What she did for us we will never forget and we are still in awe. She posted in our group and on our page, a page for all of our friend to see and so they are all able to assist in this ceremony. The tears this gave us were of deep bliss!

 

What a gift to have a ceremony touched by all of our friends from all over the world. Saying Thank You does not feel like it is enough, its not about the ceremony for us, it is all about the marriage and with this blessing the ceremony will be more beautiful than ever and will certainly be recorded and shown all over the world to show those who are experiencing the same journey we were on that there is healing ahead.

 

We are blessed to have all of you as Clients, Friends and Family.

Here is the page she posted!

http://www.gofundme.com/TwinFlameWedding 

Love

Lee and Sherry (Lois and Clark)

How deep is your Trust? Healing series 2014 March – Trust!

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Broken Trust?

I can’t forgive you…  I can’t be with you… I can’t do this anymore…  I can’t..  Whatever this is has a way of bringing you to a very shaky foundation in trust… We use these words in ego to signify that something in us is broke.  When you become unstable in this way of trust the choice to make the right decision always will seem as though you are teetering from what is hindering destiny from coming to you…  I can’t is the same as I won’t or the other words that follow such as i’ll try, or I am potential… the trust in all of this is on shaky ground. Isn’t it?

 

I have doubt, is also apart of trust.  When you trust something will fail!  What does it show you in the end that is the truth about what you said it would do happens…and…. FAIL will not abandon you!  Then that what you said becomes that you were right!  Is that what you are saying inside? A majority of us do!  What about when you say I have been let down by others… Is this trust as well.  Yes it is, because you are trusting that this will always be what you will receive outside you, don’t worry it does!  Trust is a very powerful energy!

 

 

I have been through trust training and I realized that I didn’t trust a thing years ago and still didn’t wake up to it..  You can tell how much you trust when you do the trust fall… You always fear that someone will not catch you, and you will hit the ground, and get hurt.  Sound like some choices you keep making in your existence here?

 

Another is the blindfold lead where someone is leading you and has to direct you with their common sense of directions..  The failure in that is that they can’t see what sinkholes are placed cause they are trying to get you through the trees… Someone who is completely aware of your path by leading this in front of you will always tell you the truth.  They will endure the path with you and not lead you astray…. Do you see how this can be difficult without trust?  Especially if they are not having you walk without them directly in front of you.  How will they ensure you won’t get hurt if they are not willing to walk the path with you?  Pay attention, the message here is deep!

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The awakened truth about trust is that you trust you have one more day to do something significant, you have one more moment to make a difference in your own being and yet we all get caught up by the same choices doing the same thing over and over again.  We find comfort in this energy of doing the same thing cause we trust it!  Having the same thoughts, we trust nothing changes so it doesn’t.

 

When I decided that I was going to live in truth I realized that I didn’t trust… I didn’t trust I would be accepted for the truth and it proved me right.  I wasn’t accepted… It wasn’t until I realized that being in my truth needed my trust just as much as I needed my love to get me through this broken trust.  The conditions of what my love gave me were without trust.  Do you see how unconditional love is?  It needs the very thing you won’t give to break you free of what you don’t give to yourself.  Telling my truth should their be conditions of who I can tell or what I can do with what I trust?  The answer was always no!  I had to trust that telling my truth was going to show that I am very truthful. I will call out to the truth and trust that the truth finds me more truth.

 

 

When I was abandoned and I abandoned others, was it related to trust.  Yes, I didn’t trust myself and in turn didn’t know in truth if I could trust others.  I didn’t know if I spoke from my pain if I would be accepted I trusted I wouldn’t!  If I could be damaged could I trust that I would be loved unconditionally? Can you?  I realize now that was just a lie that I was living inside myself that gave me the ability to walk away so easily from others.  Not wondering if they hurt by my actions, not wondering if I was indeed loving enough to let them go.

 

I let go, because I couldn’t face my own pain, but I could surely see my pain in others, whether I caused it or not.  I wanted to fix their pain and bring them into a world of imagination where no pain could harm them.  Not seeing that I trusted that I could do this, I was able to for a short while.  Then I knew that my own pain would infect them somehow, they couldn’t see the truth about my not trusting that they could feel anything remotely like what I felt inside.  Maybe it was that I was too genuine in my imagination, or that I was not standing in my truth enough for it to be genuine.  When I felt what I felt deeply, I realized that without me trusting that the right thing would come to me something else would come to me, and show me that this was just my imagination of the lie that made it possible to not tell the truth, I trusted this as my truth, that the lie was always right. Trust is intent… get it?

 

As humans we experience so much of what we hear inside that we isolate ourselves and miss the truth about trust.  Trust that you will be hurt and you will, trust that you will not be loved and you won’t.

 

Trust that you are not worthy of a deep love and yes you will get what you say in trust.  Trust that no one can hear you screaming inside and on one will.  Trust is the intent of what you want to have whether truth or a lie to find you and it does.

 

If you say you can feel another’s heart beat in your own as your truth and trust that what you feel in that heart beat inside you will find you then trust that it will completely!  No hesitation for that hesitation gives you the same in the trust you placed into it!

 

If you say you want to be in a truthful deep love relationship, trust completely that it will find you!

 

If you say you want to love yourself without conditions then trust that you will.  Without the words that I started with, it is always going to be a very confusing energy till you decide that you want the complete trust of what it is that you say you want!   Then make that the reason in being for that trust to give you what you know is in truth yours to give to yourself.

 

If you are having a hard time and want peace then trust you will find complete peace.  Any voice in you that says, “Yes but”.. Is a hole in that trust that says I am not enough yet.. where the lie is embedded is the truth waiting for it to see itself.  Say in self to the lie, “you will no longer tell lies for the heart that beats does so in a trusting manor, and that trust is something that I believe in.” Give yourself the wholeness in asking for trust to give you the truth about how you trust and it will give this to you when it is without question.

 

 

 

Love deeply….  Trust and let it find you!

 

Clark

 

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The Magic in gifts of Twin Flames a discussion for the truth…..

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You know there are moments of what changes everything becomes something that is embedded inside the gift of twins… please join us for this discussion much can be felt whether with or without your twin!

Relationship Reinvented  Lois and Clark aka Sherry and Lee with Eileen and Trevor

Twin Flames  Eileen and Trevor with Lois and Clark aka Sherry and Lee

A Twin Flame Discussion !Energy is coming… are you ready?

 

 

Do you Trust YOURSELF???

 

 

trustClick on the link below to listen in to our latest radio show, Wrapping up februaries pain/suffering series and Beginning Marches Trust Series,,,,great callers, great show!!

 

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/relationship-reinvented/2014/03/03/relationship-reinvented-2014-healing-series-marchtrust

Before you Attack your Partner Look inside yourself!

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Doesn’t it seem like when you lay down to go to sleep IF you have mind noise that mind noise continues inside of you one way or another into the next day which is supposed to be NEW! Usually I can shut my mind off and count my breaths or listen to my heartbeat whatever way I can usually shut my mind down and fall asleep and journey into someplace the Universe needs me to be. I remember the last “ thought” I had before falling into sleep. “why do I have to breathe in these toxic fumes, I dont smoke, I never have”  and then it began  the journey inside of myself. i have been soulfully conscious of what I put in my body.

 

I say soulfully because I had to soul train my mind because my mind LOVES Cake,  Chocolate Cake, White CAKE well any kind of Cake… CAKE IS DAMN GOOD,,, JUST SAYING.

 

So I had to tell my mind yes mind, your right cake is good,,, but eating the entire cake is not good, you will be permitted to have cake just not the whole damn thing lol. my last Doctors visit was a real pooper, The fact is I am overweight, I feel great because my Soul is Clean, I stand in  my truth at all times, I have nothing hidden, all my dark secrets are out my twin KNOWS who I am, what i stand for he knows all of my truths even the really ugly ones.I realized a long time ago why I carried extra weight, it was for protection, mind noise that no one would want me or try to abuse me as well as physical protection from my secrets, they were buried deep inside of me,,,,All is out now and I simply dont need this protection. Nor do I want IT!

 

This is all just extra I dont need, So I have vowed to get rid of it, and I am, however over the past couple of days I have went over in calories and have not moved as much as I would like so have felt discouraged, and when I get discouraged I like to blame others for my discouragement its just easier that way lol

 

So I noticed everything everyone else was doing wrong, when in reality it was my own self I was disappointed in, I went to bed last night discouraged with ME, I dont enjoy the toxic smoke from cigarettes i am a non smoker however my Twin enjoys it and I love him unconditionally and he’s not a regular smoker he smokes very infrequently, HOWEVER I find that when I dont take as good of care of my self he tends to smoke more,,, sometimes this connection goes so much deeper than the human mind can imagine.

I hurt my body the past two days but not continuing the cycle of “physical healing”. He is Physically ill, I am feeling his pain, he is having some kidney issues and I woke up this morning in pain and I WAS PISSED!  (I suppose it the same type of pissed he feels when he experiences my menstral cramps :).

 

My journey took me inside of me, why I was disappointed in ME, what I had done to get off track, what I could have done different and why I didn’t. There was no blame on anyone else it was ME. I want to be healthy, I want to be fit, I want that for me, for my kids and for my Twin because I Know he feels it, I want the energy that comes with being healthy, I am on the mission to get it.

 

My mind wanted to blame everyone else for my failures, when in fact I haven’t failed at all, I am still making drastic changes I am still on track when I fall off and consume to many calories thats my fault not anyone else’s. It has nothing and EVERYTHING to do with my twin, does that make sense? It has nothing and everything to do with him. It has everything to do with me, and my mindset and how I see things, It has everything to do with my control of me and how I treat my own body, when I heal so does he, when he heals so do I, When we fall apart physically we have to heal together. When I eat badly he smokes more, when he smokes more I eat badly.

 

To Heal this I have to go inside myself and find out what it is I am doing to not heal. So I wake up from that message filled Journey and I feel refreshed, ready to start a new day, my son woke me up at 8 am, I felt pain in my back, I was happy to take some of my twins pain, I was ready to get up and  begin a brand new healthier day, when I sat with my son and the smoke consumed me.

 

I tried to shut my mind down, I tried to not say anything, I hate smoke I always have, I vowed to never be with a smoker and I never was, I would not even date a smoker, so how ironic is the Universe my twin is a smoker, I love him unconditionally and that means loving him and his habit. I never want to Judge and I dont, I never have looked at him differently because he’s a smoker. I love him and if that means loving him while he smokes I do, and I always will.

I usually dont really notice him smoking because he smokes so rarely however the past couple of days its been more frequent.

So I got up without saying anything and just went back to the bed to lie down and fell back asleep for a while,,, and yet another dream Journey,,,What I do effects him, he has been smoking more frequent because I have been not taking care of myself more frequently. I remember a conversation I had with my mind, he has stated he was going to quit I know 20 times.

 

however I have stated i am going to get get healthy 100 times, to no avail, However this time I took a soul vowel and i am on mission,,,

 

He knows we are Twins and what he does effects me so why would he do that to us?

well I also know we are Twins and he’s feeling me unhealthy why would I overeat?

 

Well If he’s going to sabotage us , so am I

so You will be double unhealthy great plan!

 

 

I know without doubt when I get healthy he will no longer have the urge to smoke, its how twins work. We get healthy together. Today is a new day my mind is shut off, my ego is not allowed to have a say so in this. I will no longer attack my partner for what he is doing! I will no longer blame him for me being unhealthy!

 

When I fall off the wagon this is no ones issue but mine, I will no longer blame anyone else, I will no longer look for anyone else’s faults, I will go inside and find what it is I am doing to cause this behavior, It all begins within me, the destruction or the healing, I choose healing!

Love Lois

Twin flames Discussion blogtalkradio 2/18/2014

Beautiful discussion and a wonderful post which we are posting from our dear friend…  The discussion can be found on the link…

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/relationship-reinvented/2014/02/19/awakenings-of-the-twin-flames-discussion

eileenandtrevor

 

LOVE is a word that we all know; yet for so many it is so hard to connect with. Why does it seem to elude so many people and they choose to hate, destroy and cause imbalance? This occurs throughout history in a minute to minute, weekly, daily, monthly, yearly, and evolutionary pattern. There appears to be a circle we are walking around that never seems to end, constantly changing; yet we continually strive to find that universal sense of Love, both for the self and for others. At this juncture in our human evolution, our planet is going through a vibrational shift that is guiding us towards using our heart center for decision making. Whether we are aware of it or not, whether we participate in the shift or not, whether we believe in the power of the Laws of the Universe or not, the shift is happening. I do believe more and more people are awakening and they are being tugged, slammed, pushed, pulled, prodded into this vortex of a new way of being, thinking and doing.

So, what is LOVE really? Is it a state of mind, is it a feeling, and is it an emotion? When you take the time to step back, let go of all the stressors of the day, negative feelings/thoughts, and constraints, you have an opportunity to tune into what IS. What you will find, sense, feel, smell, experience is the Essence of Love. Love is not something we have to attain or we need to get from others; rather it is already a part of our existence. The reason we have had so many problems with love is we have lost the ability to tap into our innate inner knowledge of LOVE. Because of all the manipulation, control and deceit by those who have lost their connection within themselves of the love of the universe; we have been influenced to believe whatever love we know does not exist. All you have to do is sit in silence, slow your breath and clear your mind, and then amazingly you will feel a sensation unlike any you have felt before. The wonderful thing about LOVE is it can never be taken away from you; it can never go away because it is always THERE. Just as we know there is oxygen in the air but we do not see it, yet we benefit from its essence for it is this element that keeps us alive. LOVE is the element that keeps us going through the positive effect it has on the mind, body and spirit.

The key to truly understanding LOVE is to understand who you are. Think about who you are without the influence of others, who you want to be regardless of what others may do, think or say. Focus on what you want in life through joyful, positive thinking. Through the process of letting go of trying to FIND love and instead knowing you ARE love, only then can you experience this love you are looking for. Seeing what is great about YOU, those things that bring you joy, inspiration and happiness creates a balanced energy within your individual vortex. This will then extend out to others and open up their senses to align with what they want. As a result any control, manipulation or deceit that has been part of your experience will simply disappear. You will begin to see miraculous changes in both yourself and others. The feelings of LOVE will become part of your communication with yourself as well as with others. Any self talk will be focused on the beauty you have within and any negativity from others will either go away or turn into gratitude and appreciation.

Everything is made of energy and there is a time and place for us to learn what we are meant to see and experience.  This energy may exist for you in order to expand your own spiritual growth. As you reach a new understanding of each encounter with love or the opposite, your perception of the way you view life will change. This can lead to a re-evaluation of the awareness you already have and any new awareness you may be gaining. It is like adding another piece of the puzzle that may be bigger than you thought.

There is no remedy for love other than to love more today than you did yesterday

Special thanks to:

The Essence LOVE
By Eileen Bild
www.eileenbild.com
eileen@serenityexpressions.com
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We love you and Trevor both…  Thank you for this! 

Madness of Twin Flames

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Twin Flame Madness….

During the moment you encounter this connection a shift happens in you that shows you Forever.. This is often the euphoric stage of the connection that is always going to be there until mind noise is activated.. As this happens something else comes to light, the activation of the truth about what you have been doing and how you interact in the world of form.. This relationship or union as it were, is filled with a subtle underlying connection that is always going to be in effect as though of the pull to the other person outside you. This is the error of what this means as it comes to how we have always had a relationship or a connection.

The lens we see through when it comes to how we view the world, and how we survive in it alone brings about a very powerful light, that will uncover the lies we have kept, as a way to be in the world. This light is within you and has always been within you. It has had shadows cast upon it which for this understanding we will call the shadow. The shadow of the former self is always there.. It was created from the place of what has always been something you adjusted to, this adjustment is to see from the voices in the head and allow them much control over who you are outside. This conflict becomes ever so present in this connection. It is there to show you how skewed the view of being human has gone from the time we were able to think as a way of being. This will serve you into such a dire pain and the digression will be for the spite of not wanting to go inside to see the truth about why you viewed it in the degree you did.

As you ascend into this understanding and this eye opening experience you will self project utilizing words that would be chaser or runner.. These are the false dynamics of the way you have been in your existence.. As you get to see each other in this light you will have a choice to see deeper into the tragedy in beauty that this did to you as a being, a human being.
The being of light you are is then shown how to change any and all dynamic.

You will be fearful to let go of any and all pain, for the pain to let go will give the pain a sense of survival mode as it were as food for the ego or mind to keep this as a state of thinking that it is outside that the problem exist. This is the greatest magic trick for it takes you far away from what the connection was in bliss.. You thinking and how you interact in the world is the illusion of why you are or aren’t together. A great void this leaves for it is an empty pain with no real truth. It tries to give you the pain to rebirth you and you elect to suffer through this as a need or a want.. and as you seek outside to find resolution or seek outside making this about the twin you will suffer greatly. Yet the greater the suffering or pain the greater the connection has something more miraculous to birth within you.

How would you experience this connection without removing the labeling the mind has done or the love the ego kept you from within yourself if you just don’t let go? How will you experience the telepathy that we are able to experience, the depth of the heartbeat of your twin beating in sync with your own. You can have glimpses of this for moments but you will always be seeking to find out why it disappears from inside you. It disappears because of the unexplored places in you that you have refused to accept within yourself and within the depth of what causes you to have moments of unconsciousness in thinking and seeking an outside understanding as to what it means.

What if I never experienced this without ever being able to share with you here what this truly can give you when you go into yourself. What if there was no seeking the truth about yourself because you found it to painful to see inside the pain to see that you now have the power to control not just your understanding of what you experienced but how you played a part in how you can now heal what is always there for you to heal by giving permission to yourself.

I have no lies to give you to lead you to your twin, only what I found that gave us the point of no return in connection that blissfully birthed in our connection. We did this from a place that was created in birth.. maybe even in death.. As energy we didn’t seek a mind way of connection we did so without the mind and that energy came in and out of many existences to become finally self aware.. that is what this reunion is to become self aware in consciousness of what the connection is that can stay in the honeymoon period for all eternity. This isn’t about what was is given in the stars of the universe but in the universe of the self that is daring you to go to the places untravelled in you to see this for yourself.

The power of being human can be challenged to the super human level when you are combined with yourself then enabled within your twin. You first though.. don’t make this about your twin, for you are your twin as much as your twin is you. As you calm yourself in the truth of what is being said here.. allow the humble love that is going to take you into this pain to show you the connection and it’s pain that you need to accept in love and no longer judge, criticize, attack, blame, mistrust, misuse or label what pain is.. For as a child you never saw this as pain coming into the abundance of love.. The abundance of love is found in the air you breathe and in the same intelligence gave your heart the beating it does while all the other things in life continue to go on this is the sink of truth.

Pain wants you to trust in what it wants to birth in you when do you see this by bringing it into the light… What stays in the dark is more than suffering, it is madness!

Love deeply my friends, even if you don’t have your twin there is something to be embraced about your pain that can free you to find the love of all existence it is just inside of you and your love you carry.

This Valentines Day allow this to be the deepest love you can give… By giving it to yourself first that way you know what you are giving to others when you say you love them!

Clark

Twin Flame! The truth to PAIN in Awakening!

SoulAwakeningThe following is a awakening conversation that was done that we were given permission to share…  It is in this awaking that something greater is spiked to illuminate those that have pain in twins and not seeing the total picture of it’s mirror effect!

 

Friend: Thank you for reading my question on your show – I heard alot of truth in all your answers xo

 

Clark: Awe

Anything else?  And again thank you so much for asking a question…

 

Friend: Some tears as I listened ultimately I know it is my truth I am avoiding – I am trying my hardest to build a relationship with someone who is wonderful but is not my twin & the more I walk this path the more I am moving away from my truth but honestly I don’t feel brave enough to leap, yet every day energetically I feel the pull. I have tried healing sessions with a wonderful healer to try & figure out the source of my pain but as yet I have no true source. It has made me stop doing healing on others bc I feel my purpose here is to assist others to their truth – if I cannot do this for myself first, how can I be of example to another?

 

Clark: You no longer make it a choice to be an example by speaking about what it is that wakes you… You go inside yourself and allow your actions to show them in your self in being!  This is how you guide my dear one… You have this beautiful love inside you that is going to birth you into pain to show you how.. You make this choice in the NOW

 

 

Friend: So I wait, for the pain to surface & rebirth me?

 

Clark: This pain is yours to call to my friend… It is not anyone else’s…. We will stand with you and hold you through it… that is what twins are here to do.. What you find on the other side will be more beautiful than you imagined…  You can see it in the now it is NOW to experience it!

 

 

Friend: I don’t know how to reach that pain love, when I think of it I cry  so ofc it is there but when I try to go into it, it disappears and all I feel is emptiness!

 

Clark: Perfect!  Stop there….What is the emptiness my friend?  Is it peace?  Do you deserve to feel peace?

 

Friend: No it isn’t peace it is nothing, a void, I no longer feel anything. The tears dry up but I feel no love either it is empty, In those moments I have asked to be shown but I get nothing, the void remains

 

Clark: My friend….  Have you ever been to space?  Or how about looked into the sky and saw space, the universe as it were?   When you look out do you see space to be.. or space that is confined to what this nothing is in the sky?

 

Friend: Space to be infinite that’s what I see – I feel beyond what I see!

 

Clark: That is nothing is it not?  This is the space created that is inside you to see the truth about your pain… this nothing is your love and it is vast… As you translate the word used here which is “nothing” where in truth it is “everything” You will not seek the mind in this place you will seek the peace that is there that is unshakable..  why not dive into nothing to experience everything?

 

Friend: I understand, within the void is the peace I search for – when ATM all I see is nothing. How tho do I transpose that into joy in my life?  I believe it comes down to my worth – or lack of self worth. When I know I am not in my truth entirely it makes me feel unworthy of love and praise for the person & healer I am. I feel dishonest…yet my twin returning to his marriage seemingly closed that door of truth for me if that makes sense – I am not angry at him but I feel we have abandoned our truth in doing so!

 

Clark: When you reach this inside the pain you experienced you come out of it holding deeply to the present moment… it is showing you the beauty that it is.. the choices you are inside of this love you have felt in your presence… The power of your presence is this awakening… You may find yourself smiling as though an infant who just came into the world.. and then when the thoughts try to translate it, watch your thoughts as though a mouse would a piece of cheese on a trap… don’t fall out of this.. pay attention to experience the world from the new eyes that nothing is wanting you to experience!   This is how rebirth happens… When you were born into the world you did this without thinking.. and the pain is wanting you to see this now.. You will be able to reprogram your thinking in this way.. It is not seeking a sense of self in thought it is seeking its way into being beyond it!

 

Friend: That is very inspiring to read ️

 

Clark: Self worth is measured by what you give yourself first, not what another can give to you.. It is mind made way of being, which started long before your twin was to cross your path the first time or second time or however it came into being.. This is how it is translated from a former experience of what pain you experienced and now are seeing it clearly… yet it being in front of you as it were.. It is like you lost your car keys for a car you no longer own… So you go with the car you got now and can’t find the keys for it either… this is not a truth.. it is a symptom that your mind has found a way to identity with a mental history of abandonment… that abandonment can be absorbed.  You no longer make this about him or the connection to him for you can’t connect to him or anyone else until you connect to yourself… do you see where this points?

 

Friend: So it is to feel my “I AM” presence beyond what my thoughts stipulate must be my presence – to know I am beyond thinking why I am?

 

Clark: You are infected with thinking… it is not your essence as you go into the pain and find nothing it is undiscovered by you to create the energy you are in truth until you stay there to create the love you are in truth!

You are beautiful… You are love… You are everything… You are nothing… this is a truth your energy is derived from a place of no mind.. why make the mind responsible for the truth of where you are this already!

This is always available to you in the NOW

ever driven someone where and were infected with thinking only to realize you didn’t pay attention to holding the steering wheel… haven’t heard anything on the radio… didn’t see the other drivers driving… didn’t see the position of the sun… didn’t see the dog on the side of road watching you go past… do you see everything?

 

Friend: Yes, When I was training with my mentor his favorite line to me was “get out of your head ” lol infected is true. I am confused a little – in layman terms when I reach that place of emptiness, I should stay there and allow myself to just feel? Is that what u are saying?

 

Clark: What is empty can be filled is this not a fact?

You are not your thoughts… You are more… Do you think that or did you feel that?

 

Friend: The driving analogy happens to me all the time I am always “off with the fairies” so to speak… Hmmm I feel I am more – why does that upset me? I cry when I feel this!

 

Clark: fairies or the voice in the head?  Ever felt your heart beat so strong you had to place your hand on your chest?  Does it happen all the time?

You cry because you don’t embrace this feeling you abandon it by thinking… what purpose has thinking shown you?

 

Friend: I just go somewhere not of here, where connection to everything is more pure – I feel and am oblivious to my surroundings!

 

Clark: Why not connect to all your surroundings…

 

Friend: Bc it doesn’t feel pure It feels earthly and awkward and draining.

 

Clark: What does?

 

Friend: My surroundings When I go off – I’m in a happy place – when I connect to my surroundings that happiness goes away and I feel heavy and drained!

 

Clark: what view do you have in this? what makes you happy?

 

Friend: When I go to my happy place often I feel connected to nature, I am noticing my surroundings but I am only allowing the beauty of it to penetrate me…when I “come back down” as it were it is usually bc someone is trying to talk to me or get my attention and I feel irritated It’s like I walk in two worlds – I know that sounds weird.   Going back to what you said about not embracing the feeling of being more – it’s almost like it terrifies me, the feeling of being more – like I am scared of it – I cannot understand why, I am scared of standing out alone, I am scared of judgement, of failure Please do tell me if you don’t have time to chat, I appreciate everything you have given me to consider so far

 

Clark: I am here, you are still seeking the energy of thinking vs being… what gives you peace what gives you love my friend?

 

Friend: Helping other people, nature, being understood, making a difference!

 

Clark: Do you give this to yourself as well?  The truth is You make a difference my friend… You make a difference in everything!

 

Friend: When (my twin) and I separated, we use to meet up once a month and walk through the bush – just walking together, the birds actually stopped to speak to us (I know that sounds crazy) we just walked as one and every issue, every concern disappeared – all that there was was love, no expectations, no right or wrong – and it was the most peace I have ever experienced I cannot seem to find that peace without him – I know I can, but I don’t know how!

 

Clark: My friend… a cardinal flew up to me when I was driving today…  it went right to a tree turned around and tilted his head to me…  I felt it.. I knew the conversation we had and why we had it… I am on path…  it is -8 degrees here.. the snow is everywhere and it is beautiful…  Why does moments to include this one, not concealed with a stronger message no matter what it is?   It is not weird, it is connected in deeper communication that needs no thought!

 

Friend: Yes exactly that is what we experience – and yes both of us have said that alone if we go to the ocean or walk in nature we can experience something close to it again too – but in my everyday life it eludes me, and honestly – that love, that peace, that joy is what I miss more than us being united.  I crave it

 

Clark: When you find the peace you find the flame that is burning.. then when you are burning brightly it will only spark your twin to do the same.. it doesn’t happen without this very thing…  The blue flame is then called to inside of you to ignite…

when you find that place where you can experience this without him is where you will burn brightly… it isn’t about him it is about what is in you this is the connection in how we connect in ourselves to connect to our twin

 

Friend: I feel the truth in that – I know the peace I search for must be found by myself alone and this is what separates us – the journey of discovery of this. I think that is why I crave it so bc I know it is the answer – I guess I am looking everywhere but within to find it huh

 

Clark: smh… Not alone.. Never Alone …. At one with the universe which is never alone!

no separation just embracing a connection that is deep within you

 

Friend: Did u do this through meditation or just taking more time out for yourself in nature?

 

Clark: I cried in pain my friend… a pain of what my truth was… I stood naked in the truth before everyone.. I didn’t hide even those I hurt that I ran from.. I faced all things ended and faced the place of pain that it caused.. I embraced it all.. with forgiveness of myself first…

 

Friend: You woke one day and just faced it all – spilled your truth like a dam bursts its walls? And just stood there feeling it all?

 

Clark: Yes the freeing truth is always painful and I cried and when I cried so hard one night I fell into a deep serenity of peace… I had lost everyone… To include both the women on this earth that could ever give me and all my lies covering the truth unconditional love…    I faced the annihilation of it!

 

Friend: Ah I see

 

Clark: For 60 days I cried and cried and cried some more… but the more I cried the more everything I had done and the pain I caused showed me to let go… to forgive…  to know what the truth in forgiveness was!

do you know what forgiveness is my friend to yourself?

 

Friend: That is what happened when we separated, I hit that point – and I did come out of it as you said with a rebirth – unimaginable joy even in sorrow – but it has all gone – I have built myself a life of sandcastles again!

 

Clark: Do you know what the truth in forgiveness is to yourself my friend?  Is it the typical forgive but don’t forget! How does that sound anyway?

 

Friend: I don’t even understand what it is to forgive myself.

 

Clark: That’s what’s missing my friend… that is why it keeps coming back!

your history can’t be shown in a life review from your guides without this.. It removes the conditions you have on yourself and what you will transmit to others…

 

Friend: So how do I even begin to comprehend what it means to forgive myself – honestly I can’t even connect to that thought or feeling.

 

Clark: Sure you can….  start with the beginning…. when was the first time you can recall in your mind that you abandoned yourself or were abandoned by someone who loved you deeply… from the very beginning and what did that pain say to you? what did that pain create in you?

 

Friend: Please do excuse me if I disappear, I am at work and if a customer comes in I will need to go, but I wanted to thank you for everything you have gifted me thus far<3  I have been through my memories trying to recall abandonment – and it always brings up a feeling of unworthiness in me like somehow I wasn’t good enough and that is why I felt abandoned

 

Clark: Who made you feel unworthy?

 

Friend: Friends at school

 

Clark: What about your parents?

 

Friend: My sister and our cousin

 

Clark: Was your father emotionally available to you?

Was your mother emotionally available to you?

 

Friend: My parents are very loving, but have always punished us by excluding us i.e. if you do something wrong you are given the silent treatment whilst the other 2 kids get alot of love and attention!

 

Clark: Ok stop there my friend!

You were excluded from things and then given silence in punishment…  What did you tell yourself inside when this would happen?

 

Friend: That I wasn’t good enough!

 

Clark: Did your parents tell you this?

 

Friend: No – it would be blah blah blah lecture on what we did wrong, then silent treatment whilst the other kids got loved up & they would smirk at you, I have a fear of doing things wrong not trusting myself! 

 

Clark: So you told yourself a lie which was… I am not good enough… I am not worthy of love…. I am “insert” what you say here…  Do you see in what it is that you need to forgive to release and heal your pain.. And then embrace the truth in forgiveness… When will you give yourself permission to give yourself the love that you didn’t receive and become your truth!

 

Friend: So I told myself the lie that I wasn’t good enough – and that is what has hurt me all this time?

 

Clark: You had unconditional love from your parents and yet experienced conditions that you placed on yourself… what did this?  Your thinking!

 

Friend: Did u know my name means “worthy of love” it’s like it was the lesson I was born into!

 

Clark: Yes… and it is conditioned to be there when things don’t work out!

 

Friend: HOLLY CRAP!!! That makes a whole lot of sense, lol I am laughing at myself right now loll My thinking perpetuated my pain by thinking things that were untrue, telling myself lies so that if things didn’t work out I had something to blame

 

Clark: My friend… it goes deeper… into that space of nothing… you aren’t opening your eyes because your mind has still skewed you to the truth in seeing this as a means of survival of the same pain you experienced… In this remove your lies… one at a time.. as you feel pain, seek the lie in it… confront your lies.. tell your parents what you would say inside… reclaim your love in truth!  Yes, some seem to say your emotional body is separate than your thinking mind.. Which in truth your thinking is the reason you emotional body becomes effected in what it says as a way of being… this is not the truth!

 

Friend: I could never understand why when I know my parents love me so much, why I felt such pain about my childhood – I even wrote them a letter when I was 9 telling them I didn’t feel loved.  I was not a brat, not in a materialistic sense, but I honestly felt unloved no matter what they did

 

 

Clark:  This is the truth in finding your truth on the rocky path… Breaking the laws of conditions that have held you from yourself to cement any connection when you are truly in this truth.. True love in truth finds true love..  Do you see how that is the truth?

 

Love deeply

Clark