You are never without me… even when you think you are…

You are never without me… even when you think you are….


In this moment….

Water Red Heart

All moments have a place to wake you up to what we will call no ordinary love, your love is deep within you and your love is never without you… You know this in those moments that take your breathe away, you know this in those moments that create the unknown space that allows you to be undefined.

In this moment be undefined… what does this mean exactly… It means live your life, not your story! As a soul living this experience it is always possible to see a clear choice on why you tell yourself you are not enough, you are not capable of letting go to let go! You are always this moment and in this moment what has always been ordinary can always be acceptable to make a different choice. You fly even in a world with gravity, you can soar without the story.. and deeply in this moment!

As this year comes to it’s close, realize this moment is one long continuous moment without time or a year to be left behind. Just be you.. As you in a human existence relinquish the human condition of time and become timeless. You are in truth this timeless energy that is experiencing this human existence so why not make that a choice.

You are something in the magic of it all that has the capacity to know this truth. You are the truth in your story that can always change the story realizing you are not your story. You are this moment! Unique by design, unique by consequence. Desirable by love, always love, always this moment.

If you have to find a resolution to have, make it this one, In this moment you are the love of compassion that can give you the truth about how deep that love can be given to yourself.

There is no story in that, just you, just this moment!
You are beyond your human essence, a moment that is always evolving when you let go of the story that you think you must keep. Thinking can be such a violent act, for it takes you away from the only thing you ever have and are! YOU ARE THIS MOMENT!

Just believe!
Love deeply,


2014 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The Louvre Museum has 8.5 million visitors per year. This blog was viewed about 99,000 times in 2014. If it were an exhibit at the Louvre Museum, it would take about 4 days for that many people to see it.

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Dissolve your PAIN… Connection is NOW Rebirth!

Pain of birth into connection….

The story is…. What you have to endure in connection happens to you at birth. The pain of what is your reality grows in you from things that happen to you, and how you will attach what is thinking about pain to the core pain itself. The first experience of pain is always something that comes from outside of us, whether it be rejection, whether it be abandonment! The act itself creates independence in the mind and will doom you until you see the depth of what you have said inside yourself for these things to truly take place.

Ok, still scratching your head? Well let’s look at what pain is to the core! We all have a story to our pain and when the story can continue to be told through new experiences or repeated patterns of something that happened to us, we will give the story in this case food for the pain to feed on. It is always trying to show you this by the thought patterns that will happen to you.

Remember the statement you don’t happen to thinking, thinking happens to you! Yes, this is actually what causes the pain to feed. Being conscious of this is the first step in awareness and also of awakening. The dark night of the soul would dictate that you are becoming aware of your thinking that is happening to you. Yet instead we try and think it away because this in truth is the very thing that is happening to you so to immerse yourself more into thinking, which gives you more of the pain rather than making it less until you find a means to manipulate yourself in thinking to think it away.. Yes this is very possible and is something we don’t see because we don’t see the deeper truth about thinking and it’s need to meet what we endure in it…

When I went through the dark night of the soul, the pain was absolutely excruciating. I didn’t want the pain or couldn’t make the pain stop. The truth was my thinking was keeping this alive, it wasn’t that I wanted it to go away, for this to be true, I would have had to see deeper into my thoughts. If it was something I didn’t elect then my thinking would have changed consciously. Yet instead of seeing the truth, I remained unconscious which to keep thinking over and over the same things is unconscious. I let the tears of that pain flow into what would have seem to be a ocean of the self that I was flooded with when it came to pain. The pain itself would be the salt in the water as it were and it was outlined in the salt and would be of each thought I would experience. How do you cleanse such a thing right?

This happened to me a majority of the time, cause that was the problem all in itself I was completely addicted (Yes the word addiction is being used here to point to the problem of why we don’t see thinking as we should as a human being with a powerful human condition.) I was addicted to thinking about the story of what was or what will be and never focused on what is! It was non acceptance of the present moment which was the only place I could embrace my pain without the story thus clearing the salt or thoughts that kept the cycle going! Yes, the mind or ego has no use for you in the present moment unless it can take you out of time which is to make you think about what was or what will be.

The mind can’t truly function as we need to without time it doesn’t know how!

This has many things that have kept us from ever reaching the point of living a life of joy and harmony it is the static in the connection that is so loud we can’t see it. The mind can make you the subject of many things to include emotional pain, rejection and abandonment of the self.

Your pain is your outcome to the pains you have held onto before you even knew what intimate unconditional love was. Does your love have conditions? This points to its removal! You will unconsciously seek out this pain and suffer. The more you suffer the more your mind creates what the pain is. It is how we solve problems or think we can solve problems.

When I was trying to be in this connection and trying to make her responsible for my emotional state which is to say we make others responsible for something only we can be responsible for. We now will create permissions inside the mind to not pay attention to our own intuition. You suffer in this as you would a child who wants attention and when we don’t get it we will act out! This even happens with conversations we experience in the mind when we set expectations with others. It creates the emotional body that will find a clear path to the pain body we are in.

For this to occur we make resistance to the present moment into a place we resist and in that resistance we have to give the mind all the attention and make this about what the mind needs and wants and what our soul can experience is a curse of sorts.
Pain will find a way to feed on pain and this comes in a story that keeps our emotional state inside the story the mind gives us!

Is this a sane way to live? Do you ignore your intuition and allow the mind to manipulate you into being more open to an outside truth that ultimately will be a lie you have to endure within yourself? Do you see that this is a means to totally keep yourself from the truth about the ego or mind and it’s dominant way of saying you are no more able to escape unconscious behavior than you are to elect to be conscious which is a choice to be when you elect to be in the present moment.

Definition of insanity is to repeat the same behavior over and over again and expect a different result. How could you repeat anything if you truly embraced the truth. The NOW never repeats only the mind does in the NOW which keeps you from NOW..

The question then becomes how do you find your true self if you are living entirely in the mind? The answer is does your mind use you or do you use it?

The mind can’t function in the now… Only you can!!!!!!

Love deeply,


Awaking truth be connected!

The waking of unconscious patterns in you!
In true connection there is now moments where it is hard to be conscious, the moment this takes over you, thoughts of being complete, thoughts of ever being whole evade you. In fact most of what you experience is a sense of judgement on yourself which will directly point to the other person and you will not be conscious of this or what has taken over you. The mind will make this about their behavior, their rejection, or abandonment of you and in your unconscious state you will not even see that you are doing these things to yourself. This experience will directly effect the emotional state you are in and with the mind identification on full strength you will find it almost impossible to avoid taking the emotional state and bringing it to the energy field of pain as though you have no other choice. Of course the mind will not let you see choice, it has to feed on something to keep going and in this unconscious state it will see pain as a never ending source of food to continue to feed it to get it’s nourishment. The conscious state you could choose stands in the background and what ends up happening is it will continue to feed unless or until you decide that what you are doing has reached a point of ending.

This unconscious mind state impacts the emotional state you are in as though to keep you in a loop of sorts and while this loop is activated it is much like making cotton candy in the energy field of pain. It keeps you from your state of being love, or the place where your true love resides. See this as part of what the connection can’t experience for this is a part of the disconnection that was in you to begin with. Mind identification with connection!
The connection itself stands still in these moments, seeing this as a way to plant the seed of healing and growth. For when you do become conscious of this behavior, by coming to your senses your mind will suddenly become quiet it will not want to volunteer why this unconscious state was activated or where it even came from when it comes to the statements it implies.

It can be experienced much like this! Why don’t they want me? Why am I giving them all my love and nothing is returned? I am giving them all my love for nothing. These statements help the unconscious you that has been infected with the mind to resort to statements that give this any truth. (Truth here is to be taken as a lie) I am not worthy of this great love in connection, I feel I am… (Inset what the words are here that give you a sense of self that causes you pain.) If this is blank in this moment that you are reading this, it is due to the minds absence, and your consciousness is available to you in this moment. The now is the only place that the mind can ever be caught. For the constant chatter that the mind can keep playing over and over again when you stand in full consciousness can’t be accessed. It does this much like a switch. The switch you ask? Well the switch is the unconscious behaviors that can result in anything that can make you do the wrong things and be right about doing them. This is generationally inherited behavior but we will go into that at another now moment where the truth will be all you need to disable any switch. Much like unconscious states of being the truth can dismantle any switch as well.

In deep connection you experience moments of full consciousness simultaneously and experience it in great depth. This is not something the mind can experience because your senses are in full drive of the moment and don’t truly need the experience that the mind will try and make it to fully embrace the moment. In truth you experience shared senses of something that allows the unconscious mind to become dormant and allow you the truth in being or soul to experience absolute truth of what the present moment is and how you have been whole all along with any chatter or unconscious result that the mind will try and turn things into. You will be free of identity victim or perpetrator, free of thoughts that create unconscious patterns in you and deeply within wholeness and completeness you experience the free access of truth that you are this all along with or without the connection you are experiencing outside you, because deep within you the truth is revealing itself. You experience this in the now as you have accessed the silence that wonder of this fulfilling experience can give you because you removed judgement to be deeply connected inside yourself. You see the place of wonder you experience is everything in it’s aliveness, and are able to stand in this without time even knowing what time is. The truth is revealed. Connection is a very powerful experience whether it is with your twin (infinite vibrational soul resonating connection), a soul mate, a friend, a family member or most powerfully with yourself.

The relinquishment of judgement of the self has great power in bringing you into a greater strength you can access to be conscious. The beautiful way this is experienced is deeply embedded in you it is only accessible in your now, never in your later or what was.

When you truly bring yourself into consciousness without judgement or any of the minds incessant rants about what you are and how you can be in the moment you will find that what has occurred to keep you disconnected can be seen with gentle ease granting you full access to true love. It grants you the open door to be that state of consciousness that is placed within you to be that depth of love seeing the truth you are whole and complete without any distraction to be love in all things.

One of the greatest illusions we can experience is becoming unconscious and our mind activates the emotional state and brings it into the energy field of pain that will without our knowing become us in an identified mind state of who we are and what we have done or will do or will become. This is not you it never has been you, just an experience of the mind labeling you and the content that is you.

It will make you state things to include but not limited to, I am lonely, I am hurt, I am scared, I am right, I am wrong, I am not enough, I am a failure, I am a horrible father/mother. I am not a good mate, and now you will be stuck in playing a role of something you never are in your truth. You will play this role till you are no longer going to feed it, it can be that you can feed it every once in a while or you can give it a snack now and again. You can’t starve this for it is almost the same as feeding it. You can however do something that is available to you now! That is become conscious of what your mind is stating that you are or need to be or allowing it to access your emotions by not giving what the mind says any true weight to keep you in a state of loops that will create a sense of self that keeps you in dead lock.

Be now! Be connected! Be conscious! After all it is only going to be a pattern that will do exactly as stated here. When you realize you no longer need to drink the poison to be connected you will be fully connected without thought! This truly is coming to your senses!

Love deeply,

How do you resolve negative energy?

Arising Negativity…..yinyangposneg We have not seen the truth about negativity in our existence in human… This is to point you to a greater truth. All resistance of what is.. Cumulates over time and the mind will now create a story to be placed here. You can see this in what others say about others, in what others create within their stories that is perceived as negative and then there is a deeper humbling experience of what negative is. The mind or ego as it were believes that through negativity it can manipulate reality thus giving it a power. This negativity in ego truly believes it can get what it wants and have it’s needs met under the identifying light of the ego which is actually in the dark nature of what we experience in human! It seeks what is unconditional and tries to create conditions to be made where it truly sparks a thought process that can be injected into us from the outside world, but never truly reaches our depth of what it means to be human. Nothing can take away your inner peace in this way instead it floats on the surface where the inner peace can either absorb it through embracing what is said or create an identity to generate anger, isolation, retreat, the common energy of the emotional body which produces fear. We shared our journey out of this energy of inner peace, no judgements created, no sense of self created, just the unconditional love that can be accessed through the story the story teller told to allow us to show that true love can stand by itself without the need of negativity of the activated mind that sees itself in annihilation of being found out. If you say somewhere inside I am a doctor, I am a lawyer, I am a god, or I know others who are prestigious in their field of work in this world. You are no different than a homeless person sitting knowing that true love is there, it is there to say I am something in ego that needs to be heard. This voice is not the voice of love this is the voice of created negative energy that is seeking conditions on something that can be transmuted into unconditional. Here is something to look deeply within and embrace in such a way that you see the present moment more clearly! Any form of negativity that you hold onto is a deeply unconscious start or level that doesn’t want positive change. It threatens an identity created in ego that would threaten the identity to use the energy of anger, depression, rejection, abandonment or the like. It’s purpose to attack and defend it’s mental position you have inside your mind will then seek the way of sabotage, ignoring, denying, and seeking what is said as a means to keep others from seeing the point of finding true love to include the deep love within yourself. This energy of negativity inside of each of us, don’t see how this works when you embrace your true inner peace. This is found in the deep love you are concealed in the deep inner peace of what is! Face death for example. When you face this to it’s core you see the truth that we all will share this no matter what we are. You can be a millionaire on a yacht traveling the world, a homeless person sitting in the bitter cold. A person who doesn’t use the internet or social media to inject the negativity in the world….. You will be as we all are you will one day die, the negative and positive energy that made you up will become a present moment experience and will go into silence and the deep peace will be all that is there. The truth of negative will finally embrace you, and how you use this as a negative pollutant will now be used for the air that is breathed in this world without you in it! It will then be apparent that the negative thoughts that kept you hidden to form that we all have in human will now be passed on to someone who will take your place injecting to identify with a mental position of who is right or wrong! In this case the self would be! In the wild life there are predators and prey all of which follow the circle of life, there is love there that doesn’t have a thought process and doesn’t make living and dying or even I am better than you or more deserving than you a reason to attack yourself or others. It just flows within the energy as it is! If you find your inner peace you will find the deeper overwhelming love that comes with it. It has both negative and positive energy and it flows through you as it does all creatures on the planet! Just don’t attach the mind to it and it will show you the most deep love. Not what we do to each other but what in truth you do to yourself. True healing comes from the inner peace we can reach with each other because we are the same regardless of social status. Negative emotions contain a deep message inside of it, as do illnesses of any kind, are you curing cancer of placing a band aid on it! When you reach the truth of what is negative you will realize how you have created it through ego where it never needed this at all to spark this illusion of the physical. If something sparks you as negative see the truth, it is sparked to ask you one simple thing, are you connected or disconnected from being, which is human and not! When you embrace being fully present you no longer seek unconscious behavior for the world to see you embrace a conscious love the world can feel. Not because it is true outside you but because it is true within you! When someone says something to you that sparks negativity in you, instead of attacking, defending, or withdrawal let it pass through you, become transparent to the energy that comes to you, not resistant which will create an ego in you to emerge to do that very thing. It is a self that is created with mental position and not a spiritual one that embraces what needs to be felt in the deep despair of being that keeps you from your inner peace and can infect others in their inner peace. The primary is the most important! Know that forgiveness inside is that it requires giving up the hope that the past can be any different and forgiveness in this present moment is to offer no more resistance to what is! Being vulnerable enough to become invulnerable to all things is acceptance. It offers you to see others unacceptable behavior and see that the ego becomes activated from the story and the story teller that makes them right and everyone else wrong! No one has power over your inner state of peace except you, when you live in that you will then want everyone to access it for it is there place of being, it is where joy and resistance meet to be transmuted into peace which you are made up of. You are the deep ocean blue when you find this within you, not without you! Love deeply, Clark