Broken Is Beautiful….
How broken ….. is beautiful….
The painful experience of what you don’t get, is because of what you don’t have an answer to! You have experience in the pain you have been placed inside based on a lie as though it has a reason that keeps you from another truth.
The foundation of yourself is broken, and your mind is responsible for the continuation of the cracks in the foundation…. Is that accurate? Does that resonate with you?
Can you own the foundation that has these cracks in them, here lets do this… Where and when, did you start protecting this and did you lie?
State this…. I am willing to embrace my pain and allow my love inside as my power to accept I am broken, accept my pain, accept my need to feel a false sense of pain that will find its way to me if I stop protecting myself by being angry, by being sad, by being miserable, and making it ok to make others feel this energy that I place on them and not being responsible for it!
I have a hole in me from the shape of those that have come into my existence and have hurt me, they left a shadow of themselves in shape of the pain that has broken me, yet I am now claiming my power, I am now claiming my beauty, I am now claiming these layers I placed on myself to be removed… Not by allowing these shadows to exist but because I am now shinning the light on them.
Here is how broken becomes within you beautiful… The lie that continues the crack in the foundation is that we believe that no one will love us for our truths!
How powerful is this inside of you. Why did this become a place we didn’t see it for the truth that it is?
My truths will only allow others to never love me completely cause my truths prevent me from loving myself. I am embarrassed, I am ashamed, I am not worthy as I never had anyone to protect me when this truth was placed in me, I didn’t want it and that energy of what this did to me is now hidden with a purpose. It is how I learned how to lie, the sadness that this has done is that it clouded my own judgement, it clouded my own truth and I have taught that this energy is ok to pass on to anyone who comes in contact with me. Not accepting this as my true story I will keep this hidden. My soul is shielded and protected under this thought process. But why? If I never accept this inside me that I am not a liar, then I need to stop telling these lies inside myself first. How do I do this and accept that I am not alone, by realizing that this loss in me from the lies that are created are not my doing, but the doing of the energy that has infected me as an infection of what was something I was infected through in pain.
When do you decide that the lie no longer needs to keep you in pain and keep you from a truth inside of love that was always destined to find you. The thought process in the way you are is keeping you from something that truly is the truth to why you are here and why your love is powerful beyond measure!
Shame and guilt how they work together to keep the lie alive is found in the layers of pain you have within. These are looked at in an outwardly manner, this keeps you from yourself and your essence and your ability to heal yourself more powerfully because the energy of the lie you have in both keeps you from every allowing the chance or choice to heal. This is the core evolution or birth of pain that we carry all our lives. Yet this illusion has to keep the stream of thoughts that never are you.
Take a pain you have had a long time, now think about how much pain this thought process has caused others in your life? Do you see the lie and how it dictated a thought process that truly isn’t you. Never was never can be and the essence of letting go of this threatens your identity, your identity of what? what you feel shame or guilt from? what do you feel guilty about let’s examine this more closely. Now let’s pull the layers back and see the pain inside of the guilt. who put that there and why? do you see this now outside yourself.. do you see how you place space around this very thing and no longer make it a thought process to keep you from the truth of your true essence. How did this happen? It happens just as birth does not because it needs you to expand, it needs you to extract.. it needs you to venture inside of yourself and your essence. Space exploration didn’t stop because we didn’t need to go to the moon it is because we went to the moon without going inside of ourselves first.
Do you see how that universe should be discovered first.. as a thought process of lies we continue to destroy not just ourselves but the planet that sustains us and those we say we love. When does the balance tip in favor of love to win? when does this matter? when does this make more sense as though the senses are the more important part of non thinking. You feel everything, yet the translation of acceptance in unconditional love is translated 9 billion different ways on this planet in this driven experience of the animated soul that consumes this form for a period of time. It goes and allows pass through.. what if we need to get this part right to?
Yes this is the truth… I had to accept it and had to love it within myself to know the difference of how energy translates so much of the unconditional love that surrounds and sustains us. In the connection we share a stream of pain that is neither stronger or more than.. it is just pain.. and pain is the birth of all things we experience, it is the birth of this connection.. can you see why so many fail??? In child birth does a mother give up cause the pain is to great or does something miraculous happen as you push through the pain? That is where this connection gives you the unimaginable.. It is why I experience her cycle, why I can hear her thoughts inside her, why she can experience all the things I am inside myself, she can feel the ego in me separate to show her my true essence without the thought.. without the claim, without the need, to be higher or lower.. This higher, lower is missing the enter and through.. It never sees it correct and teaches the mind how the connection is not happening.. Pass though energy my friend.. a connection is the truth in this and everything else.. gone through with the through birth experience.. It’s almost as though the door is left open when you find your twin flame, you have to birth the other direction to cement the connection. It is not easy and it is not I can’t be with my twin flame, you can’t be with the pain you experience you can’t be with your twin, not because you see it as a choice but you see it as a place of destruction, the mind made me can’t exist past a certain point and we fear that unknown to keep us apart not from the lines we can’t cross because we see no lines in the unknown. How do you know this was how this needs to happens in existence.
A false love of self will give you a false love of what you feel is love to you. This truth is not to keep you guessing but to keep the guessing away from you and allow you to see the truth. This truth is only as painful as you keep it alive by avoiding what things you have experienced within your life that you keep hidden inside yourself. These have the core of truth inside of them. Do you know that once you accept a stream of pain in you as something you hold another responsible for and don’t face this within you or keep it a secret you now have created energy to come out of you some other way. Now the truth is! Is that hurting you or healing you? A secret or a lie is a sickness of a symptom of something in you that you will either create the energy of shame or guilt to make choices based in a thought process to keep you from your pain and not share your pain yet it will do that very thing just in a different way don’t be fooled energy of the lie hurts more than the truth.. the longer you hold the secret inside the sicker you become and the less you will believe that there is a love out there that transcends the truth that twins are. Do you see how seeking outside you can’t cement you with your twin.. If you read between these lines you see the truth in what is true inside you to untangle and love yourself enough to trust the truth will not keep you from this love but rather allow it to come to you!
Clear cut choices of pain that come out in energy are the form of addiction your mind needs to find other alternatives to suffocate the pain, this is found in alcohol, drugs, addictive clinging in a relationship, blame, ravage attack, violence, sexual abuse, the most prominent is the abuse of food, the bodies addictive need or starving purpose is concealed in the damage you continually will do to yourself to hide. How do we see this to heal it completely is found through the pain not in avoidance of it? You are not your mind, never have been, never will be, you are more.. you are whole.. you are broken and you are beautiful.. Not because I said so, but because you can see inside yourself when you look into the mirror of the union that is you to see it for yourself. You need this understanding of it to find those cracks in the foundation and to seal them inside of yourself to see how beautiful you truly are!
The day you ask for this judgement inside you to stop, is the day you accept that you do have another who can love you deeper than you can imagine, cause you found the door to reach inside you to love yourself deeper, not because of all the pain you have been inflicting and been inflicted on you, but because you finally see the true essence of the beauty that the pain inside you has created even if you made poor choices. The choice is this one choice.. What you accept everyone around you has the opportunity to accept as long as you live in the truth. This is the path there is no other, there doesn’t need to be.. we have shifted in this direction long enough.. Isn’t it time to start being connected and stop being disconnected.. then the choice is to connect inside yourself, how else do you stop with the rejection that you claim happens outside you to see it for the truth to truly fall deeply unconditionally in love with you!
If you argue against reality you will suffer….
so the pledge is simple forgive yourself to release yourself from the lie… After all the suffering continues as long as you allow it, not the other way around.
Wait just so you see this the other way around here…
As suffering I am not releasing you from this pain cause if I don’t keep this thought process alive I won’t know who I am.. and in this way I can show that I abandon me as much as anyone else who will abandon me.. Suffering is the abandoning I do to myself not someone else abandoning me.
Loving this about yourself is the compassion that needs the wall broken down, not in who you are, but by who you aren’t.. everything leads to this and everything encompasses this. If your not afraid to be compassionate this is the first clue that you are.. not just for everyone outside you, but inside yourself.
Your pain… your brokenness is the peacock of this existence don’t get it twisted and don’t deny it’s truth!
This truth sets you free!
Signed,
Your soul
Dear Clark: I can’t be with my twin flame… part 2
Dear Clark: Can twin flames get married, I mean really married?
Clark: Yes they are married in all moments…
Dear Clark: No officially… can they be married?
Clark: Yes, but not without swimming through a hurricane of existence… The calmness of the eye in the storm is ones idea of bliss where it is a wealth of answers yet swimming back through to the shore is where the true wedding occurs.. This marriage on the shore goes beyond the answers of the mind and places you on beach of the source embedded in soul and the body it unites the union in truth… Do you understand?
Dear Clark: its bit typical! :-/
U mean after passing through lots of difficulties?
What we see when we are meeting someone who shares something inside with us gets misunderstood. To clarify this just as it does in any relationship. What needs to be abstract is this as it pertains to twin flames…
If you have a circle how does it fit into a straight line, or what about a square being connected to a triangle. Still wondering what this has to do with twin flames or relationships in general?
Yes, that may seem odd! When you are asking how does this equation of the twin flame or any union need to be embraced to go past the depth to seal a relationship and make it unbelievable. A few things such a this will help you understand the conflict of the understanding of why your twin won’t be with you or you can’t be with your twin.
Note: the following experience will have communication that will limit why I was retreating and or chasing my twin as well as her chasing me.
Yet combined is the gift of this union in a very small lens….
As a child I was given many different thought processes, many understandings of what love is and what love is not. I was given the understanding that a man who could be there to make kids didn’t have to be there in the child’s life and yet when it came down to it, the providing which was based on rules of love had to have a financial backing. As a child I didn’t care much about money, what child does right? Yet these were what was absent in my understanding and my experience as it became more and more about something I watched my parents achieve in teaching me. As it came to survival in this world and it came to how you are supposed to experience love this is the view I was taught from. Now understand what I can also see in love is the energy of a sexual nature that seemed to be almost dreamy, yet it was erotic, and not something that I could see all the sides to, the intimacy that creates such a thing, the understanding of what you see when you look into someone. I experienced sexual abuse at 6 years old, it wasn’t like you think it was a babysitter who had a very interesting fetish, but that is for another post for another time.
I was emotionally disconnected in this understanding as would be any man who can take the time to not know the difference between what connecting is or isn’t. The stream of energy that I spent my time with as I got older where in such of a more intimate understanding of what the connection should be and told those I had relationships with what I could see, most decided to try and give me that, yet didn’t share in the dream that I had within myself. I knew there had to be something different, yet inside me I was broken.. I was broken because of the lie inside of myself that kept me from ever understanding that love wasn’t just these things it was something else that I never deserved, because I never experienced it. This false reality was my reality! Now some may find that they do deserve it, but what is deserve exactly and why does it elude us. Well here is your answer.. This stream of energy that I lived within wasn’t able to see the concept of my existence as energy and wasn’t able to see that energy flow with another, never seeing the impact of what energy I did give to those outside me was only visible to them, I couldn’t see it nor did I not see why it wasn’t returned… I felt a deep love in me, yet how deep could it be if pain layered over it, inside of it and beneath it?
We all make this about something that is interactive inside the mind where in truth it is the place of forgiving this about ourselves that this or any relationship should give you. Now in this case forgiveness means to give up the hope that anything about the past could be any different. It means healing what you don’t know and may never know and the only way to experience this truth is the very thing stated in giving up the thought that you need to be strong where in fact being vulnerable can give you the pain to birth the unthinkable.
As you watch two separate rivers flow and see them come together this is to where this points, the waterfall that is experienced is as violent as it is mixing the two yet it can be not just difficult it can be that the two rivers have no choice. The twins have this gigantic ocean to merge to create. Not that all relationships don’t create this, they just start building dams to keep the river on a course that will always keep it from allowing the river to create a more profound earth surrounded by the ocean that is now the union that they created.
Now in my experience I shared what I went through and in brief what Lois went through was very different, both of our up bringing had violence, sexual abuse, alcoholism, the blind eye of parenting, the self destructive behaviors of belief of not knowing that we were worth any love that we knew was possible without keeping this and bringing our rivers together has not been without building a dam!
In all cases those dams kept us from achieving the understanding that the river once combined needed to flow to the wider places and go through the places that we held dear by a built dam where the other couldn’t see why a dam was built just the control of the dam was shear avoidance. Now understand that because I am being specific about how this happen in the world of a river that means nothing about what this river had to show us to make it into an ocean..
The ocean was created from the energy of combining both of these that were in essence our thoughts, our ego’s, our beliefs, and whatever else you can imagine then what you can’t imagine. When you come here, you may be destined to meet what the truth of love is, but this path I am pointing to is the most beautiful, the most destructive, the most magical, the most brutal, the most hidden, the most obvious, the most incredible connection placed here. Not because it is a place within it that becomes the practice of everything but because you get to experience the world in the eyes of a child again after it has been meshed together from all that was your existence prior. Two bodies that experienced the isolation, the disturbance of beliefs that are created because of that isolation and the individuality that needs to be broken into inside of yourself by yourself to combine with the other.
This view is not just yours now, it becomes your twins. The messages come in your dreams, in your moments of being awake, and even as you get through your day to day existence. I am so rooted in her, I saw the abuse that happen to her when she was 12, being chained to a pole in the basement, the sadistic man that took her innocence and made it a game, and how painful it was to experience her lose something in her that made her protect herself, from what this was doing to her inside. Her screams, her cries, her hiding, her anger. Her spiral of what this did as she got older and used men, and didn’t seek out the paths to heal her, but more so protect her. I also saw her beaten by her first husband, she pushed him into it, for her to experience love was to be brutally struck, she knew, she could feel the connection with him but wanted to feel the abuse that told her that a form of love was coming from that. Do you understand what this does to you to see this? What about not being able to do anything just to stand there experiencing this even in a dream state. I was there… not because this pain was struck in her but because as my twin I was shifted in a warped way of control to control what I felt was love to in thought inside myself, you combine these things between you to heal this for you both. The one soul is now infused with all of that, how do you mesh this and then find a way to communicate completely to understand each other? Did you know that this connection pushed through the walls of the unimaginable to allow you both the connection that surpasses what is known in the world as love. The trust was broken between us more times then not, not because we had trust issues, but because of the trust we never had in ourselves to never trust the other based on the existence of the painful bends in the river prior.
You see what is not in color becomes black and white in a relationship and so many travel to the gray area they never get to see how to be the true colored universe of love that we always are inside! Yet, we keep it inside of us never allowing another to know us completely. You can be married and never experience this, you can be in a long term relationship and never experience this.
Your twin when combined with you will allow you to have tears in your existence that you experienced from their perspective and them from your perspective, then combined!
The violence I encountered as child she witnessed and was shown what it did to me inside of an anger I never was able to diffuse until this combined existence showed me. I had to re-live as much as she has to re-live. You want to experience how to let go to be the most to each other in this capacity. You really won’t have a choice, this is that connection in this union. The hurricane I was trying to explain goes through this depth as well as many other depths. Each with a birth in understanding the truth and how that truth creates the energy of love you are without form or with form.
Do you truly think that the shell you have that has everything within it from the flesh, down to the bones, doesn’t carry that energy that you experienced in 5, 10., 25, 50 years of existence. That is a false sense of self the mind created in order to keep you as an individual, that will stay an individual, to keep you from every being connected like you should. This is not easy to experience when you strip away all that you have known, the thought process that has retained you to keep you in survival mode is removed.
Even the acts of violence that you see look different than before, cause you see the connection in everything. You see the child that is locked away inside and why the child made those choices as an adult. You can be angry or even bitter, but when this connection is cemented and you are back to shore through the hurricane you realize you are now in alien territory to experience this world with different eyes. New eyes, because you experienced a life review before you left and answers were found in your connection, this connection is made of the source. It will not let you not see the truth in any form, or formless.
How many do you know that can say they have experienced the greater pain their love they are connected to experienced? Can tell you the details of what their thought process was, can you stand before anyone and show them the painful face and the teas that struck their existence and yours. Do you know how painful what was done to them effected you inside of yourself to truly break through it to share a love that allows you to close your eyes and feel their heartbeat in sync with your own… Inside me I hear two heartbeats…. What do you hear?
Do you feel that love is fine without this restriction that is in place now cause we don’t connect in this way? Do you see how going through this very thing and even if you run you will still be infected by this truth? How many don’t connect after experiencing this are missing the most blissful connection you can ever experience, not because it isn’t real but because they don’t see past the pain or their choices past, current, or future.
Hopefully this will cause the shift in this existence and this experience, I laid a ton of information here that is not really information it is the truth that binds the foundation of the cemented fracture that spawns the most beautiful way to experience love!
It is so tragic, yet so beautiful.. What was never able to be healed, heals in this connection, not because it is talked about it, It has never been worded in such a way I feel, yet that is why we are here. We are the 29th union of creation based on place of light, but it is experienced to see the path of thought that created the ego behind it and now instead of one trying to disable the ego two share in disabling the lies that powered the ego to keep the truth from ever being able to heal. This connection heals that truth. Now as this was stated in the most direct way… imagine this for all things, how you view the world before, why you make the choices you make, how things impacted you before, how you have no more secrets inside you that only you carried is now shared with another.
The thoughts you had, have or will have, come inside you both, you both can hear it, you both experience it and you see it for what it is without needing an understanding of it. The voice inside you now two, the existence you have in single now doubled and you see this and you stay in the in between state of existence. You get to be more present and you are not alone in that presence. You are now.. no more understanding of what it means to be alone.
So I see that you are asking about married, about the twin flames ability to marry one another, do you see how many weddings took place just before we even got to the ceremony you see as a couple that happens.
The fear of being found out why you make the choices you make is the step that keeps the fear alive. The fear is the venerability that men have but don’t show as we either are taught or ignore it by the lie we tell ourselves. Women have this and keep it inside yet feel it stronger because it needs to be in place and not shared, cause it would mean destruction of the self! Who would you be without the experiences you have in this existence? The threat of this being found out or identified are false fear yet a very powerful illusion that will keep the pain in you alive enough to keep it hidden. For what reason? Combined you will have answers to this and a few others!
If you notice I have no fear about sharing these pains for they birthed us in union… It was not easy, and yes there was a pain in every uncovering in this truth.. Pain happens with birth and the reward goes beyond the thoughts you keep and it goes deeper in this union. This truth sets you free!
Mom….
I know you are watching over me, I know I am not supposed to be afraid, I know the strength you placed inside me was to always be something that I never denied. I know that when I sleep you place your wings around me to protect me from the place inside me that stays since you left. I remember your heartbeat even from when I was inside you feeling protected. You never let me be without love, If anything you gave me the most precious love of all.
I don’t know what has me feeling you so deeply today, I suppose when I stumbled upon understanding my mom’s tears It came to me how much you stay with me even when I feel like I am ok with where you are now, I wish you could see how your baby boy grew up in your absents. I know you aren’t absent that is the thing. I know that you have stayed on top of me birthing my gifts to understand what I felt was impossible you showed me the doors to make it possible. I fly every chance I get you left me such a gift to be able to see with eyes that you birthed me with.
I am not done yet, not even close. You showed me my light and I promise to shine it on everyone I can, even those that can’t see it for themselves. I praise in the name of all that I will continue to be the light that others need when I can’t even see the light myself. You placed such crumbs for me to follow. I know your shinning down on me every step of the way. This step and the next steps that never end.
I never knew the words to tell you that you were the perfect Mom.. I feel sad that I didn’t find them then to share with you how important you are in my existence here. You gave me the strength to find the love you believed in and showed me that it was real.
I knew the story you kept trying to tell me of a love never known. The beauty and the beast. How they connected to the soul. I knew how much you believed in it and felt how real it is. You were right, and for that I will always feel your smile with me. Thank you for that. Thank you for helping me be the man I am supposed to be for Lois. She truly helped me believe a man could fly. She never let’s go of my hand and she never let’s me land for to long to realize I can fly again.
I understand the saying now more than ever, you never know how much something means to you till it’s gone. I realize that it isn’t about it being gone. It’s about how much more you embrace it because it becomes alive inside you. You never have to let that go. You can embrace that and bring it out just breathing. That is what you are supposed to do. To honor such a love, why mourn to know that you just have to hold it deeply and allow it to be what can be felt. It is this that allowed me to touch the lives I have. I know it is the love you gave me. I never stop growing it. This world is a big place yet the love you gave me is bigger and I am growing it into the universe where it will always be.
I miss you Mom..
Clark
A day in the life… Twin Flames union…
We wake up everyday and see each other as we did while we were sleeping, we share in such a connection, as I blink to open my eyes I look over and see her looking at me, a smile always comes over her face, it is as though I was being born all over again everyday this happens. You see how this very small thing can change not just your day but how you even get up passed that to look into the mirror?
As we have combined and stopped the hiding that we did for so long it seems that you see each other new more and more in every passing moment. It isn’t that you see them with the content you have with how you see each other, you start to see how they have the most beautiful scares in how they became the way they became. If you never experience the joy of looking into each other and seeing each other how will you know what it is that you are looking at inside of the love that is connected to you both?
We share in everything, I put toothpaste on her brush just as she does mine, I start the shower she makes sure it is the temperature we both need or want. We make the bed together, we pick up the clothes we tore off each other night before together, we are together. I get the coffee, she gets the water!
I could go on, and on, about this and how it is, yet I feel the most important parts happen without these things, we never miss a moment, if you are trapped in your mind when you are with your partner, you will miss what you can share with another, why not say it out loud? Remember you are no longer alone, nor are you judged as though you are. If I am feeling any kind of way, she will grab my hand and ask me what am I thinking about, I don’t say nothing, I say exactly what it is!in this case I will say, How do we change the world of where we are to show them it is the truth? She will usually say why do you always ask a question you already know the answer to? Or something like that! 
Then she will stare at me and wait for me to answer. Usually I do… I do so as it comes from a place of no mind, and in that moment all the great passion that this union brings to us both sings, or places the words in me as if it were a stone slab being worked by a great teacher or master who knows without thinking.
As the moments have passed, and the knowing has greatly achieved a more vibrational place inside of our union, I can say this without any hesitation. In this moment and at all moments to come, or passed, my heartbeat is and always will be directly connected to her’s inside of the greatest most beautiful experience known… It will not need any belief from what I can say here or do there, yet if you are seeing these words and feeling what they mean as it comes to what your heartbeat can give you, then you are abstractly embracing this connection without any words that can be said.
This past week we uncovered a deep sadness in me that had not been hidden, but was something it was time to share with each other, I was somewhat quiet more than normal, I was inside of myself talking as we all do from time to time, and when she would ask, I would say I am feeling places in me that need healing. She was patient with me all week, for I had started to ask myself what it was that I needed to see, well she held my hand and said you have always been working, you spent a great deal of time, your whole life serving, and working to do what your mother and father had done, do you ever miss that?
Now, how did she see this in me as I couldn’t see it in myself? Well, she was there for most of it, I was a work horse, I wanted to be successful at every turn, How do you just turn something like that off, and not wonder where the energy went? We looked even deeper and saw that what I loved to do was to change lives, the capacity of what I do now seems so much more evolved and deeper, as I have had to be patient and be understanding and even wait for those times the minds settle to accept what is changed within you that now separates you from what you think, and what you truthfully are.
This hole in me was placed in a way that kept me saving, working, providing yet keeping me from what I have now in my existence. How do you just shut this off and go a different direction and not wonder where the energy went? It isn’t like it was just shut off, it was removed in such a way that I didn’t have time to really grieve the change, or the acceptance that I now have no use for the material as I found a wealth that far surpasses it within our union.
As these discoveries continue to find us in our journey, it is so beautiful cause in those moments we celebrate the truth inside of this connection that we all make up different things inside ourselves that keep us from truly accepting things that are the way they are. In some cases we make them negative, missing the positive that it brings into our lives, even the absence of things that are never going to make a difference cause you can’t take them with you!
None of what you will experience in material will ever give you any part of the love that you truly are meant to experience in individual form yet connected to it’s truth you find everything.
As we went through this, this past couple of days it was another place of pain that love had to be embraced because I had a hole created in a image of my own father and mother that stated I needed to be always saving, always working and always be a certain kind of way to be successful. Many, may experience this alone and just change rapidly, or suddenly, yet don’t really see the depth of what this can mean to share this with someone they are connected to. It looks like a change and then you suggest other changes without knowing the impact of those changes, cause you didn’t share them with the other.
Some go deeply into what they were taught and miss this completely. It abandons you as much as you abandon yourself! This domino effect eventually cuts you off from your ability to connect. Now this is important here for those who keep things to themselves. Do you see how this love is deeply embedded to ensure that all the forms of what was never communicated finds a direct path to communicate?
I am deeply in love with the union, which places myself in that place where I now can see myself under a lens that has no hiding, it sees no point. We both see each other in this way. For this past week she went through a significant place as well, the hole that was placed in her as her mother and father consumed the burned place that she felt lost in, now holding hands we are, sense was made of it. This was the truth about where his her father’s love presumed, so did the chances she got to learn about her father in a bar that he would talk to her like one of the guys when she got old enough. This kept her from getting what she had inside of the idea of what a father should be we all create this image like it or not the media helps paint any picture so does the mind when it sees it happen outside of the truth you keep inside yourself. This didn’t happen for her until her 21st year. She talked alot about what her sister felt yet, I could see in her what she felt, what she wanted to go back and fix, how could she now he passed in 1995?
She does so with me, we follow through on what this means to how you learn yourself to heal yourself. Why rein-act it because you can’t truly accept the way it went so you make sure that your love becomes truthful in allowing answers to come when it is needed.
We have gone to where her father drank himself to death, we sat in his chair and experienced it as though it was that time, they talked about everything as did we! Yet there was a time when she experienced something she never told anyone she shared this with me and it explained what I had dreamed about her before. She saw and heard her fathers cries which impacted her for the remainder of her time before now, not being able to hold him and tell him it’s ok, she saw what no child ever wants to see, their parent vulnerable, broken, and no way to shield them from what pain is consuming them. How do you heal this? Why do you not take this and understand this to is a very deep place inside of this union you will heal between you. Trust me it is.. this is what you experience. Much like the sum of all images you experience when you existence here passes before you finally leave, you get to go through with another who can share these images with you to heal through them embracing the pain to place love inside of it, and to forgive through them and to love deeply in a way that was never there before.
I am not sure if any of this answered what you may think this connection is, but it sure is a real glimpse into the truth of this connection and it’s daily moments that are pure as you can imagine. Pure unconditional love with a wealth of answers placed inside of it to be the union that changes everything. How this mirror is inside you is one of a kind.
Thank you all for reading and thank you all for believing!
Clark
Twin flames the union of spirituality!
Recently I was speaking with someone about our twin flame union and she wasn’t understanding, she understood the concept of two bodies, one soul, she asked me to not bring any religious beliefs into the conversation, I told her usually we don’t bring in any religious views into our teachings, our union is our spiritual practice, this statement caught her attention and she began to ask questions. I believe my answers helped her. This can also help anyone who is seeking what every day is like with your twin..
So I decided to write it here for you to find.
She asked me about our church – I explained our church is our connection, our congregation is our family, our children, and even some friends, she asked if there was music, I said yes there is music, the music we dance to even when no music is playing. The music in our love making, the music in our soul that is constant. She asked if there is fellowship?
Of course there is in our teachings and in our writings and in our seminars etc… meeting and gathering of others we love the fellowship part wether it be over email, or message, or on the phone, and even in person. Is there prayer? Yes, there is prayer and meditation, we meditate together always, it’s peaceful and cleansing. She said how about communion? Of course we take communion in one another we are one soul with two physical bodies. She thought she was going to find a path that was untaken in this formula. She said how about offering? I smiled and said we have no building fund, if that is what you are asking, as we go out into the world to teach this unconditional love, yes we guide people, we do seminars, however people who pay for our guidance get one on one personal time with us, they don’t pay for our services, they support our mission, and we do not use these funds for personal gain, they go into our work. So she asked about God, Do you worship god? I said Clark and I believe in a higher power, a source of all energy, and of all things and as to honor what you asked in the beginning I won’t go into detail about our personal religious beliefs, however, we worship and respect and live for our union. I don’t worship Clark as human being, nor does he worship me as a human being, but we do worship our connection, our union, and we honor it, we practice our union, as a spiritual godly union. our union is love, in it’s purest form, God is love it is said, and our union is the source of our connection, it’s revered and we live inside of it. Unfortunately we live in a human world, but we don’t ever have to be of it. We are truly one soul, living our spiritual practice.
If you could be with someone every moment of the day and be connected how could you not live in harmony if you could only see the mirror of yourself and what your love is to the other?
How it can be possible..
A devoted Iowa couple married for 72 years died holding hands in the hospital last week, exactly one hour apart.
The passing reflected the nature of their marriage, where, “As a rule, everything was done together,” said the couple’s daughter Donna Sheets, 71.
Gordon Yeager, 94, and his wife Norma, 90, left their small town of State Center, Iowa, on Wednesday to go into town, but never made it. A car accident sent the couple to the emergency room and intensive care unit with broken bones and other injuries. But, even in the hospital, their concerns were each other.
“She was saying her chest hurt and what’s wrong with Dad? Even laying there like that, she was worried about Dad,” said the couple’s son, Dennis Yeager, 52. “And his back was hurting and he was asking about Mom.”
When it became clear that their conditions were not improving, the couple was moved into a room together in beds side-by-side where they could hold hands.
“They joined hands; his right hand, her left hand,” Sheets said.
Gordon Yeager died at 3:38 p.m. He was no longer breathing, but the family was surprised by what his monitor showed.
“Someone in there said, ‘Why, then, when we look at the monitor is the heart still beating?’” Sheets recalled. “The nurse said Dad was picking up Mom’s heartbeat through Mom’s hand.”
“And we thought, ‘Oh my gosh, Mom’s heart is beating through him,’” Dennis Yeager said.
Norma Yeager died exactly an hour later.
“Dad used to say that a woman is always worth waiting for,” Dennis Yeager said. “Dad waited an hour for her and held the door for her.”
The inseparable couple was engaged and married within 12 hours in 1939 on the day Norma Yeager graduated from high school.
“She graduated from high school on May 26, 1939, at about 10 a.m., and at about 10 p.m. that night she was married to my dad at his sister’s house,” Sheets said.
The vibrant duo had a “very, very full life.”
They worked as a team. They traveled together, they were in a bridge club together and they worked in a Chevrolet dealership, creamery and other businesses together.
“They always did everything together,” Sheets said. “They weren’t apart. They just weren’t.”
Dennis Yeager described his father as an “outgoing” and “hyper” man who was still working on the roof of his house and sitting cross-legged with no problem at age 90.
“The party didn’t start until he showed up,” he said. “He was the outgoing one and she supported him by being the giver. She supported Dad in everything. And he would’ve been lost without her.”
Dennis Yeager said it is strange today to go into his parents’ home and see the “two chairs side-by-side that they sat in all the time,” empty. He said it was in those chairs that his parents cheered on the Arizona sports teams they loved and rarely missed an episode of “Wheel of Fortune” and “The Price Is Right.”
According to their obituary, besides their children, the Yeagers are survived by her sister, Virginia Kell, and his brother, Roger Yeager, as well as 14 grandchildren, 29 great-grandchildren and one great-great grandchild.
Their grandson Randy Yeager said he has been inspired in his own 13-year marriage by his grandparents’ loving and lasting marriage.
“Grandpa and I were talking this summer about all of the people getting divorced for this reason or that and he mentioned that nobody stays together anymore,” Randy Yeager wrote to ABCNews.com in an email. “I told [him] that my wife Mara and I would never be getting a divorce and he said, ‘That’s because you’re old school, like me!’
“That was one of the greatest compliments I could have ever received and one I will strive to live up to for the rest of my life,” Randy Yeager said.
The couple were put in a casket together holding hands for their funeral this week, but are being cremated and will have their ashes mixed before burial.
“All their life has been together,” Sheets said. “So, when it came to the funeral home, the family asked, ‘Can we have them put in the casket together holding hands?’ Because that’s the way their life was.”
We all have a choice in how we love and how we live in union… how this is possible is how you look deeply inside yourself!
Unconditional Path… Twin flames….
What kind of love would you like to have others show you? Wouldn’t it be wonderful if others love you exactly as you are, without any reservations, without any requirements, that you should do this or do that or be different in any way, without judgement of any kind. That is truly unconditional love, loving you not in spite of conditions, but loving you for what you are, who you are. It is this unconditional love with which you need to love yourself and to love others, to be able to be one with another oneness.
To fully grasp the complete and profound significance of oneness is an even expanding exploration for human consciousness. It may well always be for us an ultimate which we seek to understand and discover in ever increasing increments of intelligence. There are many people who have had experience of this oneness at a profound personal level. I know this because I experience it. It is real and alive, my twin and I have broken through and moved into an awareness of oneness and we share the experience although we agree its beyond the description this experience is not something we seek out.
We both always knew there was more. much more and we sought a spiritual connection. Teachings pointed us toward living more effective and spiritual lives here on earth rather than reaching for cosmic experiences, however these experiences give us a glimpse into the greater reality of which we are all very much a part.
I recently had a dream journey and in my dream I would see my twin flame and was amazed that every time he turns around he had my face, no matter what he was doing every time he looked at me I saw my own face, in my dream it was as if it were days this happened. I came to realize I was seeing my face on him because we are one. This brought a whole new understanding of the meaning of oneness to me. We did not seem to lose our physical identities but yet there was no separateness. All was one. so there could be no separateness. I feel him always when we are physically separated he is still with me, I feel his heartbeat along with my own, when he is ill, I feel his illness, I hear him speaking to me on the inside always. Even when he’s right next to me, I feel his emotions, I can even feel his pleasures, I felt the build up and release, I allow him inside of my soul because it’s also his, we share one soul. This may be hard for some to understand or even believe but I am here to say to you, it’s real.
There is a intellectual enlightenment or illumination in this spiritual oneness a state of moral exaltation an indescribable feeling of elevation, elation, joy and bliss. It comes with an enhanced energy a sense of immortality a consciousness of eternal life. Individually we are able to focus our energy inside of our connection, imagine if you will when we focus together as one what we can accomplish!
As one being we are filled with light, we have a lifetime of extraordinary experiences that have nothing to do with the daily lives we live. We have light to spread every moment we add more inner light and love to our connection!
She is my light and I am her’s, inside of me is the place of depth that can feel everything and speak it into being as she can feel my heart, feel my love, and hear my thoughts. I never lose this connection, not for one second. Imagine the mind going astray to try and cause disbelief and hearing her inside me saying it’s just not true!!! How else can you hear my voice if it were?
This truth comes to me in all the moments I stay self aware, even when I don’t, it seems to be inside me as a pull of gravity that says how deeply we are able to love. I can hear her inside me as my strength, never to judge, never to run, always connected to me! What if we never dreamed outside of the love we currently have, to ever obtain this? Can you imagine the cycle of disbelief of love that will never make it’s way, because it was never called to by you?
If we are energy why did we not figure this out sooner? She is why I can fly, and why we want to help open others to the possibility to what truly can be there for us to fly to. You are after all a being of light that is here to experience the connection to yourself and to another. How deep you go in that connection never has to be limited… It never has to be stopped, and it never means you won’t feel the joy of the connection you will go into when you leave here.
Simplicity of being is found inside of a connection to ones self inside of their soul. How can you share this soul if you as an human can’t see the soul you possess to be able to give it to another? Do you realize the depth in that question? Do you see it in what you feel from what was asked?
You are more, if you are reading this… feel this….. you are always MORE.. more than what your mind will tell you, more than what you are reading in this by me telling you. It is felt inside you, you have a voice inside you that almost vibrates just from saying it.. I am more, and I can connect even if I don’t see what more is. How do you know we can’t fly until you take that leap inside of yourself? Who is there to watch you take this leap? You are! Who is there to catch you in that leap? You are… How do you reach the other without taking this one leap?
You are so beautiful, you should see how you light up now realizing inside you that you are floating, you do have a way to no longer see gravity.. You feel it? Do you truly feel it!
Now trust it… for there is no reason not to!
Chaos: A Twin Flame theory
How would we think and act in daily life if we were truly aware of our divine essence?
We certainly wouldn’t doubt any of our abilities, when we looked in the mirror, we would see only love, acceptance and appreciation. We would see ourselves as fully being able to attract everything we desire, we would certainly treat our bodies with care and we would give thanks for its design, whatever the design may be.
We should encourage the awareness of our magnificence in every regard, when we reawaken this awareness the inspiration will flow, there was no way for me to be able to be completely inside of my connection with my twin, without the changed awareness, I moved from being flawed, jaded, abused, limited, and imperfect to being completely comfortable with my magnificence! That was the most amazing gift I have ever given myself. I’m not writing about self esteem here, nor am I writing about levels of confidence, rather I am saying I keep the important question, who am I? In the forefront of my mind and soul, it does not have anything to do with what talents I have or how worthy or worthless I feel about myself. It has to do with a simple truth.
I somehow have a quote in me and cannot remember who actually said it, I believe it was an ancient philosopher who said “You carry god about within you, poor wretch and you know nothing of it.” Actually finding that to be true was a turning point in my life. How would I have ever been able to give to my twin something I could not have given to myself. How could I have ever put into my connection all of the truth inside of me if I didn’t see it in myself?
We must learn to give others what we hope to get from them, before we ask for someones attention, let us first lend them our attention, before we ask for love from someone, shouldn’t we give love to ourselves first? If we really want the person we are in a relationship with to be honest and open with us, we must first be open and honest without ourselves. Our twin flame union inspired me and continues to inspire me, our mission, our purpose, and our connection is the great purpose that feeds inspiration, all of my thoughts have broken their bonds, my mind has transcended all limitations, my consciousness has expanded in every direction, I have found myself in a new wonderful world, dormant forces, talents, and energies have come alive, I have discovered I am a greater person by far than I ever dreamed myself to be.
My soul is free and connected to another in harmony, I am/we are a spirit. I am totally engaged in the now , I am at peace, there is no noise or trouble or conflict, that does not mean there isn’t any, it just means in the midst of turmoil, i can still have calm and peace. I have learned to kill and continue to kill my ego. I realized that my egos voice had me convinced I was powerless to manage my own destiny, there was a time when I was kinder toward the ego since it placed such a dominant role in my life, but in the awakening process I knew it was something that needed destroyed, I do not agree that since its in our lives we should learn to love and accept it, I do not believe it serves any useful purpose, Ego denies our original invisible reality so it must be removed completely. Realizing ego was a traitor to our connection was ultimately what set me free of it. I have to always remember that ego isn’t even real it sometimes still protests and attempts to delete my inspiration, my enlightened self responds with remembering whats trying to drag me down isn’t real.
I try today to see the physical world as an illusion, that helps me to enjoy it more and stays inspired to write and I keep the world this to shall pass close inside of me and sometimes even written on my hand it keeps me unburden when my imagined problems feel troublesome.
Our egos want us to live in a state of self importance.. but my soul knows the only thing that is truly important is my connection my union everything else falls under the even my children as I am not of much worth to this awakening without it. Anything thats not of my union – fear, worry, shame, anger, even illness is only really worthy of my laughter. The face is I had a death while I was living, I can be in this world without being attached to it, I’ve simple disregarded my body identification and this has liberated me from so many issues I had connected to in my mind, fact is we only have now and it will disappear in a flash.
Lois Lane 11 29th union…
What every man should know…..
Things to know about women!
When she stare’s at your mouth!
[Kiss her!]
When she pushes you or hit’s you!
[Grab her and dont let go!]
When she start’s cursing at you!
[Kiss her and tell her you love her!]
When she’s quiet!
[Ask her whats wrong!]
When she ignore’s you!
[Give her your attention!]
When she pull’s away!
[Pull her back!]
When you see her at her worst!
[Tell her she's beautiful!]
When you see her start crying!
[Just hold her and dont say a word!]
When you see her walking!
[Sneak up and hug her waist from behind!]
When she’s scared!
[Protect her!]
When she lay’s her head on your shoulder
[Tilt her head up and kiss her!]
When she steal’s your favorite shirt!
[Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night!]
When she tease’s you!
[Tease her back and make her laugh!]
And when she is ornery!
[Hold her down and blow razz-berries on her belly!]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time!
[Reassure her that everything is okay!]
When she look’s at you with doubt!
[Back yourself up!]
When she say’s that she like’s you!
[She really does more than you could understand!]
When she grab’s at your hands!
[Hold her's and play with her fingers!]
When she bump’s into you!
[Bump into her back and make her laugh!]
When she tell’s you a secret!
[Keep it safe and untold!]
When she looks at you in your eyes!
[Don’t look away until she does!]
When she misses you!
[She's hurting inside!]
When you break her heart!
[The pain never really goes away!]
When she’s mad!
[Hug her tight and don't let go!]
Call her at 12:00am!
[On her birthday to tell her you love her!]
Treat her!
[Like she's all that matters to you!]
Stay up all night with her!
[When she's sick!]
Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show!
[Even if you think its stupid!]
Give her!
[The world!]
Let her!
[Wear your clothes!]
Let her know!
[She's important!]
Kiss her!
[In the pouring rain!]
When she runs up at you crying!
[The first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?” and just hold her!]
The how….
Quote:The most important, the primordial relationship in your life is your
relationship with the Now, or rather with whatever form the Now takes, that is to say, what is or what happens. If your relationship with the Now is dysfunctional, that dysfunction will be reflected in every relationship and every situation you encounter. The ego could be defined simply in this way: a dysfunctional relationship with the present moment. It is at this moment that you can decide what kind of relationship you want to have with the present moment.
The decision to make the present moment into your friend is the end of the ego. The ego can never be in alignment with the present moment, which is to say, aligned with life, since its very nature compels it to ignore, resist, or devalue the Now. Time is what the ego lives on.
The stronger the ego, the more time takes over your life. Almost every thought you think is then concerned with past or future, and you sense of self depends on the past for your identity and on the future for its fulfillment. Fear, anxiety, expectation, regret, guilt, anger are the dysfunctions of the time bound state of consciousness.
There are three ways in which the ego will treat the present moment: as a means to and end, as an obstacle, or as an enemy. Let us look at them in turn, so that when this pattern operates in you, you can recognize it and decide again. E. Tolle The New Earth 2005!
What is stated here is simple, when you make a relationship out of time you will not be successful in seeing these things in her and she will need and want you to! Thank you for reading, and love to you in this moment!
CK
Dear Lois… What is a Twin Flame from your words?
Dear Lois, we have been reading Clark’s words on twin flames.. and wow!!!!!!!! Is all we can say it is almost a seed planted in my thoughts that changed but I just can’t grasp this in something I can’t wrap my mind around. Can you explain what he is saying in your own way???????
Welcome to Lois’s Kitchen,
I will first ask you to put this apron on and say you have coffee inside you! I know this sounds strange right? You have been through a rough road filled with questions with no more answers to satisfy you or keep you understanding what the truth is to your connection. By now your really lost right. Well let’s do this…
There are 3 pots in front of you… we will fill each one with water… and put them on the burners on the stove. After we set each one on the stove, all three will come to a boil right? The first pot I am going to put a carrot in the water after we cut them into little pieces. The next burner we are going to put 3 eggs into. The last one we are going to put in some ground up coffee beans. Of course you are probably asking yourself why this, what does this have to do with anything especially twin flames.
Well in truth it has to do with everything to include twin flames…..
As they all come to a boil for a few minutes we take them out and place them in the 3 bowls in front of you.
In the first bowl we have the carrots.. after being in boiling water what do they feel like? Soft right?
The second bowl has the eggs…. after being in boiling water, lets take one out and break it, when you do this your find out it is hard boiled right?
finally the coffee, take a sip of it… Taste rich… right?
Your probably wondering what I am getting at here?
Each one of these objects all faced adversity (life’s problems), boiling water, but all 3 reacted differently.
The carrots went in strong and hard, but they softened and became weak.
The eggs were once very fragile the thin outer shell protected the liquid inside but after boiling water they became hardened on the inside.
The coffee beans were different they changed the water itself!
This connection Twin Flames represents the coffee! Do you see how this should be how it is obvious it is to you? What you make all your adversities into components, this connection actually changes the water you both are in. It takes those and brews it to richness.
Clark is my words, just as my words are Clark’s, I enjoyed this very much! Thank you! Does your connection combine you to speak from the connection you are within?
Lois
Dear Lois… Patience….
Recently someone finished reading our blog she asked me to write something on patience. So why not right?
Aren’t we all waiting for something always? Waiting in line at the bank, waiting at the carwash, waiting in line at the grocery store, waiting for payday, waiting for a phone call, waiting for our kids to graduate, waiting for our retirement, waiting for a movie to start.
We always seem to be waiting! It’s easy to become impatient! I meditated on the subject of patience and realized patience is just another deception of the mind, or rather impatience! Either way why do we focus our energy on either one?
Take for example waiting for a ride in a line at an amusement park, if we find ourselves patient, the line still moves only as fast as its going to, anyway the presence of a patient energy is simply going to make the wait more pleasant or unpleasant. You can take the time to talk to whomever your in line with, learn them on a deeper level, or laugh at a memory, or you can get to know others around you. Eventually you get on the ride!
Impatience brings anxiety, stress, agitation, rudeness, and sometimes even anger. Therefore making the wait, not pleasant changing the energy around you to impatience and agitation for the remainder of the day. Road rage is a perfect example. The saying goes patience is a virtue. I happen to not have any need for such a thing in my existence here in this existence. Imagine a prisoner locked up for a period of time, would it not be much more of a peaceful existence should the prisoner trade in patience for acceptance? Or anyone else for that matter waiting in line at the grocery store just by not factoring in patience and using acceptance instead changes the energy!
Whatever you cannot enjoy doing, you can at least accept that this is what you have to do, acceptance means for now this is what the situation this moment requires me to do and so I do it, without strife, without agitation.
The prisoner won’t be able to enjoy the loss of freedom for whatever period of time, however performing the action (doing the time) but they can bring acceptance to it!
Doing something in a state of acceptance means you are at peace while you are doing it! That peace is an energy that flows into what you do! That prisoner can now accept what is before them without strife, agitation, anger, frustration or any other negative energy. Same goes for waiting in line at the grocery store. accept the fact the line is long you will eventually check out. If its making you late for something eventually you will get there!
On the surface acceptance looks like a passive state, but in reality it is active and creative because it brings an entirely new energy into the situation you are in. The prisoner can patiently wait for the day of release or impatiently wait for the day of release either one isn’t going to change that day, one way, or another. Impatience won’t bring it quicker, however it will make it more miserable, but acceptance will bring inner peace to the situation freeing your mind up to focus the energy on growth and learning and doing what it is you are supposed to be focusing on. The impatient pregnant woman, the impatience driver stuck in traffic, the impatient worker and father waiting on payday. The baby coming, the traffic will break, the check will come it’s all about the energy you give off to make the situation more miserable or more pleasant and peaceful.
Life is always about the journey, never the destination enjoy every moment, accept each moment, imagine the peace this will bring! If you feel you can neither enjoy or being acceptance to what you do, stop letting your mind lie to you! You are not taking responsibility for the only thin you really can take responsibility for, which also happens to be the one thing you that really matters! Your state of consciousness! and if you are not taking responsibility for your state of consciousness, you are not taking responsibility for your life. Find peace in all things, who needs patience?
Lois
